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In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals         6.30.04         Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769

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>In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific >Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals     >6.30.04             Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. >http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769

blah.. blah… More scientific soothsaying.. and half truths.. Still using old prices for renewables.     Which are getting CHEAPER each year as scale of economy grows.     While the other sources are getting MORE expensive year by year. And using old stereotypes for wind power…  tsk..tsk..    The larger turbines have blades which are slow and visible enough that most birds can avoid them.  (reduced bird kills).   The author also ignores that the Sierra Club is NOW promoting wind power !   http://www.wind-works.org/articles/scsitingadvisory.html Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of contaminating a state or two with radioactive isotopes. Same goes for burning coal.  The emissions are a significant problem that will never go away, Dependence Foreign Oil..   Just look at the cost of Iraq operation..      Projected to be over ~250B$! Just to wrest control of it’s oil from Saddam! Imagine if that money had been put into conservation and renewables !

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> Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of contaminating a > state or two with radioactive isotopes.

I have never understood this: aren’t the wastes from nuclear plants a fairly small volume of material, easily contained? And which states have been contaminated and how much has it cost the taxpayer?

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> In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific > Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals   > 6.30.04            Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. > http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769

an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every point it made – at least out of the first third I read. Regards, NT

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: > : > : > : > : > Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of contaminating a : > state or two with radioactive isotopes. : : I have never understood this: aren’t the wastes from nuclear : plants a fairly small volume of material, easily contained? Yes, absolutely and it is common practice. : And which states have been contaminated and how much has it cost : the taxpayer? None, nor is it likely or even possible given the currently imposed standards for handling. Good questions, too many people take the anti-nuke kooks at their word with out checking. :

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> None, nor is it likely or even possible given the currently > imposed standards for handling. > Good questions, too many people take the anti-nuke kooks at their > word with out checking.

The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are reactors that blew up completely. Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen tremendously. Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is far too great. — Yours Zebedee (Claiming asylum in an attempt to escape paying his debts to Dougal and Florence)

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> The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. > Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are > reactors that blew up completely.

        TMI blew up?  That would be news to everyone who lives right around it.   Making yourself look ignorant of basic fact does little to support your points.         I’m assuming that you are an American since most of the rest of the world is well aware of the percent of energy in Europe and Japan that is produced by Nuclear power.  The examples that you cite are 50+ year old designs which are all that is common in the US due to people like you NIMBYing any modern reactor construction.  It’s the equivalent of saying that modern cars aren’t safe since a ‘57 Chevy didn’t have seat belts, air bags, ABS, crumple zones, etc. > Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles > away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated > and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen > tremendously.

        You are exposed to FAR more radioactive waste from Coal fired power plants than Chernobyl.  Take a look at http://www.ornl.gov/info/ornlreview/rev26-34/text/colmain.html for a scope of the actual numbers.         We have much more to worry about from the existing coal energy production infrastructure than new nuclear development. > Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is > far too great.

        Modern designs are self-limiting.  That is to say they can not go critical (which neither Chernobyl nor TMI were in danger of anyway) but will in fact naturally "fail safe."         Bill

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> The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. > Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are > reactors that blew up completely.

     TMI did NOT blow up completly; in fact, it did not blow up at all, read the facts here: http://www.nrc.gov/reading-rm/doc-collections/fact-sheets/3mile-isle….. Chernobyl is a whole different deal, and something that can not happen in the US.  Why?  Because it happened first in 1957 at a place in the UK then called Windscale and we learned not to use graphite-moderated reactors for power production.  Instead, we use pressurized water reactors.  I respectfully suggest that you Google "Wigner reaction Windscale", read, and come back smarter. > Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles > away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated > and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen > tremendously. > Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is > far too great.

     Yes, I agree that we should not build graphite-moderated power producing nuclear reactors (the Chernobyl type).  Also, no nuclear reactors should be built without containment buildings (like Chernobyl).  By the way, this is pretty much the way we have always done it in the United States. Vaughn

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > : > > : > > : > > : > > : > > : > Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of >  contaminating a > : > state or two with radioactive isotopes. > : > : I have never understood this: aren’t the wastes from nuclear > : plants a fairly small volume of material, easily contained? > Yes, absolutely and it is common practice.

Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one has figured out what to do with it.  Waste has to be contained basically for eternity, so you’re foisting a debt upon humanity that can never be repaid, so that you can watch silly programs on the TV for a few years. Whatever the volume, engineering for eternity is expensive; just look up ‘yucca mountain’.  Throughout the ages, all this waste will have to be guarded against both leakage and theft for blackmail or terrorism. There is a lot of waste even now; to use nuclear power to replace coal and provide power to growing nations would make the problem much worse.

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> Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > has figured out what to do with it.

     Wrong.  Most waste is stored close the reactor because it is safer that way.  Radioactive decay of used nuclear fuel occurs at an exponentially decreasing rate.  That means that the bulk of the radiation is gone after a very few years and then moving it to a permanent storage site becomes much safer. Theft of recently used nuclear fuel is less of a problem because safely handling it represents a big problem, and it is much more easily detectible than older used fuel.      The scientific/engineering community HAS figured out what to do with nuclear waste, nuclear waste storage is now mostly a political problem because of the misinformation and scare mongers. Vaughn

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > has figured out what to do with it. >      Wrong.  Most waste is stored close the reactor because it is safer that > way.  Radioactive decay of used nuclear fuel occurs at an exponentially > decreasing rate.  That means that the bulk of the radiation is gone after a very > few years and then moving it to a permanent storage site becomes much safer. > Theft of recently used nuclear fuel is less of a problem because safely handling > it represents a big problem, and it is much more easily detectible than older > used fuel. >      The scientific/engineering community HAS figured out what to do with > nuclear waste, nuclear waste storage is now mostly a political problem because > of the misinformation and scare mongers.

Well, capital punishment doesn’t cost much, unless you include the average of $2 million of lawyer’s fees it takes in the US.  Yes, the process of getting someone to accept your 10,000 year radioactive waste is expensive because of NIMBYism, but the expense is a real one that must be paid. Is it possible to bury a large volume of radioactive waste for a longer period than civilization has yet existed?  Maybe.  Is it cheap?  No.  Yucca mountain in the US hasn’t even opened yet, and the local government in Nevada is doing everthing it can to stop it.  If you tried to run the Europe and the US and Asia off of nuclear power, how many yucca mountains would be needed, and what would the real expense be?  Is it ethical to place this burden on people 1,000 years in the future, when in truth there is no way to prove that a particular bit of engineering will be reliable for that long? For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal?

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> > Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > > has figured out what to do with it. >      Wrong.  Most waste is stored close the reactor because it is safer that > way.  Radioactive decay of used nuclear fuel occurs at an exponentially > decreasing rate.  That means that the bulk of the radiation is gone after a very > few years and then moving it to a permanent storage site becomes much safer. > Theft of recently used nuclear fuel is less of a problem because safely handling > it represents a big problem, and it is much more easily detectible than older > used fuel. >      The scientific/engineering community HAS figured out what to do with > nuclear waste, nuclear waste storage is now mostly a political problem because > of the misinformation and scare mongers. > Well, capital punishment doesn’t cost much, unless you include the > average of $2 million of lawyer’s fees it takes in the US.  Yes, the > process of getting someone to accept your 10,000 year radioactive > waste is expensive because of NIMBYism, but the expense is a real one > that must be paid. > Is it possible to bury a large volume of radioactive waste for a > longer period than civilization has yet existed?  Maybe.  Is it cheap? >  No.  Yucca mountain in the US hasn’t even opened yet, and the local > government in Nevada is doing everthing it can to stop it.  If you > tried to run the Europe and the US and Asia off of nuclear power, how > many yucca mountains would be needed, and what would the real expense > be?  Is it ethical to place this burden on people 1,000 years in the > future, when in truth there is no way to prove that a particular bit > of engineering will be reliable for that long?

I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’.  There is also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’;  ’no way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is acceptable for nuclear waste. And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our predecessors?  Probably not very often.  Yet who gave us racism, slavery, religious hatrid…??  We don’t go around blaming the ancient Egyptions or Romans for such things now, do we?  How many generations were poisoned by lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’? In 500 years, our progeny may be thanking us in their nightly prayers (or whatever passes for that in their time) for putting all of that valuable fissile and radioactive material in such a well marked location that they were able to find it and save them a lot of trouble.  They may use some of it for irradiating foods to limit spoilage; fueling their reactors; various medical and industrial processes. > For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against > terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal?

The same way you secure airplanes, public monuments, highways, everything else.  By also being inventive.  Considering the number of airplanes hijacked, the number of buildings attacked and the number of nuclear plants not attacked, it would seem that nuclear plant security is working. daestrom

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… > I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’.  There is > also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’;  ’no > way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way > to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a > particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. > Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done > every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car > built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, > if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a > city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is > acceptable for nuclear waste.

I think the main issue with the nuclear waste is that all the past performance and extrapolations indicate that what is promised by politicians (keeping it safely) isn’t going to happen. More to the point, it especially won’t happen where they plan to do it. > And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our > predecessors?  Probably not very often. … How many generations were poisoned by > lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’?

People curse prior generations all the time. Anyone who has had to do any kind of toxic waste cleanup (including lead and asbestos) on their property usually has a bad opinion of previous standard practices and sometimes previous owners. Anyone who has come down sick due to toxic waste usually is not happy about it. The question is, should we do this ourselves? Should we knowingly poison and kill people in the future? Most folks would rather not. >For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against >terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal? > The same way you secure airplanes, public monuments, highways, everything > else.  By also being inventive.  Considering the number of airplanes > hijacked, the number of buildings attacked and the number of nuclear plants > not attacked, it would seem that nuclear plant security is working.

We do not secure any of these things very well. It’s just not possible. Security comes mainly from various police forces attempting to catch the dangerous people before they do something or, at least, not very long after they have. Anthony

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > … > I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’. There is > also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no > way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way > to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a > particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. > Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done > every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car > built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, > if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a > city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is > acceptable for nuclear waste. > I think the main issue with the nuclear waste is that all the past > performance and extrapolations indicate that what is promised by > politicians (keeping it safely) isn’t going to happen.

Last time I checked, politicians weren’t designing things.  Just bi** about why some money should go to their favorite projects. More to the > point, it especially won’t happen where they plan to do it. > And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our > predecessors?  Probably not very often. … How many generations were poisoned by > lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’? > People curse prior generations all the time. Anyone who has had to > do any kind of toxic waste cleanup (including lead and asbestos) on > their property usually has a bad opinion of previous standard practices > and sometimes previous owners. Anyone who has come down sick due to > toxic waste usually is not happy about it. > The question is, should we do this ourselves? Should we knowingly > poison and kill people in the future? Most folks would rather not.

Is burying toxic waste in a well marked, guarded, monitored location ‘knowingly poisoning and killing’??  Nuclear or otherwise toxic?  How many barrels of toxic waste are being buryed every day with far less oversight/planning everyday?  What is being done about that? If burying nuclear waste is ‘unethical’, then so is burying many other toxic metals/toxins.  Considering the relative amounts and quantities involved, seems like we should be focusing on coal ash and lead batteries more than we are.  Yet these receive far less attention (haven’t seen Dan Rather saying anything about them on the 6 o’clock news).  And they may ‘poison and kill’ many in future generations than nuclear waste. daestrom

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Would you kindly move your nuclear thoughts out of alt.solar.thermal, home of "practical uses for the sun’s heat"? Thanks. Nick

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Is it possible to bury a large volume of radioactive waste for a > longer period than civilization has yet existed?  Maybe.  Is it cheap? >  No.  Yucca mountain in the US hasn’t even opened yet, and the local > government in Nevada is doing everthing it can to stop it.  If you > tried to run the Europe and the US and Asia off of nuclear power, how > many yucca mountains would be needed, and what would the real expense > be?  Is it ethical to place this burden on people 1,000 years in the > future, when in truth there is no way to prove that a particular bit > of engineering will be reliable for that long? > I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’.  There is > also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’;  ’no > way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way > to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a > particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. > Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done > every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car > built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, > if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a > city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is > acceptable for nuclear waste.

Well, for something like the brooklyn bridge, you can make it quite reliable, do stress testing, etc, and you have a history of how bridges hold up over their lifetimes, and millenia of civil engineering before that.  Airplanes, of course, fail periodically, and some people will always be killed that way.  Failures are kept to a minimum by investigating every fault, and fixing it so it never happens exactly the same way twice. With nuclear waste containment, the time where it has to be reliable is longer than the time civilization has existed; you do not have a history of how this containment works over the lifetime of the thing. Extrapolating from a few stress tests and a 50 year history of containing (and failing to contain) waste to a 10,000 year operating life is nothing more than educated guesswork.  By comparison, you can extrapolate from previous experience to the decades or centuries a bridge may be in operation with some confidence. > And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our > predecessors?  Probably not very often.  Yet who gave us racism, slavery, > religious hatrid…??  We don’t go around blaming the ancient Egyptions or > Romans for such things now, do we?  How many generations were poisoned by > lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’?

Well historical figures did many bad things.  We needn’t emulate them or descend any further.  And, if the nile river were radioactive as a result of Ramses wanting to have better air conditioning, I think we would hold him up as one of history’s great horrors. > For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against > terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal? > The same way you secure airplanes, public monuments, highways, everything > else.  By also being inventive.  Considering the number of airplanes > hijacked, the number of buildings attacked and the number of nuclear plants > not attacked, it would seem that nuclear plant security is working.

Any security can be penetrated; having lots of radioactive material around means that the inevitable terrorist successese will be far more destructive.  The september 11 attackers thought of taking out a nuclear reactor with aircraft, but decided not to, that time.  There’s no way of protecting every plant, everywhere, forever. If you could, it would be horribly expensive. Why not just cover north dakota with wind farms and arizona with PV? From a national security point of view, it’s far, far safer.

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… > Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is > far too great.

This is, I think, a statement of faith, not fact. Just how much risk is there really. The risk of doing without nuclear are pretty large.

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… > Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > has figured out what to do with it.

As I understand the plan. It is, store the hot spent fuel for a few years to cool off then "dispose" of it. The dispose process has been discussed to death, so most of the fuel rods are cooling down a few extra years at the facility. The problem is not that no one has figured out what to do, but because no one can get the citizens to agree to let them do anything (any of the 5 or 10 solutions now considered technically adequate).

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> … > Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk > is > far too great. > This is, I think, a statement of faith, not fact. Just how much risk is > there really. The risk of doing without nuclear are pretty large.

     Exactly; it is a statistical fact that air pollution kills just as surely as radiation, but no significant radiation escapes a nuclear power plant while we tolerate plumes of pollution from "safe" fossil plants.   And then there are those wars in the middle east over oil…     Everyone seems to forget that the US Navy has been operating hundreds of nuclear reactors for decades under far more severe conditions than any stationary commercial power plant.  Problems?  None.   In the process, they have spent millions of your tax $ training nuclear operators to an extremely high standard.  Needless to say, most of this talent goes to waste in the civilian world due to public opinion. Vaughn  (an ex-Navy nuclear reactor operator)

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> … > Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > has figured out what to do with it. > As I understand the plan. It is, store the hot spent fuel for a few years to > cool off then "dispose" of it. The dispose process has been discussed to > death, so most of the fuel rods are cooling down a few extra years at the > facility. The problem is not that no one has figured out what to do, but > because no one can get the citizens to agree to let them do anything (any of > the 5 or 10 solutions now considered technically adequate).

Perhaps a more precise way to say it is, the waste stays at the reactor because it at present has no where else to go.  You can blame this on NIMBYism if you want, but that doesn’t make the problem go away. You have to count the full costs of nuclear power, and it seems to me that a lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity.  Even if you assume reactors can be made perfectly safe, it may be that nuclear power is too expensive to serve as the primary energy source, except where subsidised or used for military applications — submarines, aircraft carriers, etc.  One source of subsidy is assuming the government and future generations will handle your waste disposal and security problems for you.

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Please keep this off-topic nuclear stuff out of alt.solar.thermal. Thanks, Nick

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… > You have to count the full costs of nuclear power, and it seems to me > that a lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity.

You have to count the full cost of coal power, and that seems to me that a lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity (because the waste includes poisons that never break down), where nuclear waste only needs to be secured for up to a few thousand years. (after that it becomes just chemical waste and is about as nasty as the coal waste, except not as radioactive.) Why one solution for coal and another for nuclear? If the reactors just sprayed the fuel into the air after 100 years, they would emit less radionuclide than the coal plant does per KWH. So why are we so much more worried because the radioactive material comes from a reactor rather than a coal plant? You have to count the full cost of hydro power. The cost of warming the impound and changing fish species in the rivers, loosing the migratory species like the salmon. Changing the erosion balance and where the beaches are located (the sand beaches, many of them anyway, are stable only by a constant influx of sand from the erosion materials carried down the rivers). Of increasing the risk of massive flooding when the dam fails, and of course the risk of terrorist attack. The disposal of accumulated silt without injuring the disposal area. This is our most benign energy source and it is still very costly in unpriced ways. And in the end, you also have to count the full cost of not having that power there when you need it. What is the cost of not getting our folk to work? You know this personally if you were out of work during the Bush depression.

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>… > You have to count the full costs of nuclear power, and it seems to me > that a lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity. >You have to count the full cost of coal power, and that seems to me that a >lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity (because the waste >includes poisons that never break down),

Never ? And at what concentration ? > where nuclear waste only needs to >be secured for up to a few thousand years. (after that it becomes just >chemical waste and is about as nasty as the coal waste, except not as >radioactive.)

How few thousand years did you have in mind ? >Why one solution for coal and another for nuclear? If the reactors just >sprayed the fuel into the air after 100 years, they would emit less >radionuclide than the coal plant does per KWH.

A good point if it’s true.  Is it ? > So why are we so much more >worried because the radioactive material comes from a reactor rather than a >coal plant?

The concentration of waste, reactor fires, track record, new technology, dread risk, cancer etc… >You have to count the full cost of hydro power. The cost of warming the >impound and changing fish species in the rivers, loosing the migratory >species like the salmon. Changing the erosion balance and where the beaches >are located (the sand beaches, many of them anyway, are stable only by a >constant influx of sand from the erosion materials carried down the rivers). >Of increasing the risk of massive flooding when the dam fails, and of course >the risk of terrorist attack. The disposal of accumulated silt without >injuring the disposal area. This is our most benign energy source and it is >still very costly in unpriced ways.

Yes, all options have environmental aspects and impacts, but   a) can you show that nuclear power is better ?   b) If so, by what criteria ?   c) Do all stakeholders agree on the criteria ?   d) If not (c), then who the hell are you to impose a solution ? Cheers, J/. — John Beardmore

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… >lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity (because the waste >includes poisons that never break down), > Never ? > And at what concentration ?

Wait. We never addressed either of these issues when we were being frightened by fuel rods? But for the heavy metals, the best we can do is oxidize them into a ceramic like material that won’t disolve. Otherwise, like lead, they just hang around, so the concentration had better be very very low. … >Why one solution for coal and another for nuclear? If the reactors just >sprayed the fuel into the air after 100 years, they would emit less >radionuclide than the coal plant does per KWH. > A good point if it’s true.  Is it ?

Actually I am glad you asked. I made it up. But it could be true. I have heard some numbers which I would not trust without a lot more research on how much radioisotope pollution coal produces, but I do not expect much of it to become free. I think it is left in the ash, mostly, and we then have the problem of how well sequestered this ash is, compared to the fuel rods and such. Forgive me for stating a counter point as if it were a factoid. It is just a possible conclusion if we wanted to do a fair evaluation of which process screws us over the most. >  c) Do all stakeholders agree on the criteria ? >   d) If not (c), then who the hell are you to impose a solution ?

Ah! The very heart of democracy. We all get a vote. But our votes can be bought, re-educated, or even simply nullified by the leaders doing one thing and telling us another. On the other hand, the physics of this is not a voteable issue. The question is not if the stakeholder agrees, but if the physics is complete and sound. I want the science right, then try to address the public perceptions.

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>> >lot of that cost is securing the waste for eternity (because the waste > >includes poisons that never break down), > Never ? > And at what concentration ? >Wait. We never addressed either of these issues when we were being >frightened by fuel rods?

Of course we did, though the question is one of (perception of ?) integrity of containment ? > But for the heavy metals, the best we can do is >oxidize them into a ceramic like material that won’t disolve.

Actually, the best thing might be to bombard some of them with neutrons and extract more energy, but that’s another story… > Otherwise, >like lead, they just hang around,

Decaying…   Unlike lead… > so the concentration had better be very >very low.

? > >Why one solution for coal and another for nuclear? If the reactors just > >sprayed the fuel into the air after 100 years, they would emit less > >radionuclide than the coal plant does per KWH. > A good point if it’s true.  Is it ? >Actually I am glad you asked. I made it up.

:)    Thought so ! > But it could be true.

Might be… > I have >heard some numbers which I would not trust without a lot more research on >how much radioisotope pollution coal produces, but I do not expect much of >it to become free. I think it is left in the ash, mostly,

Why do you think that ?  I thought most things were pretty volatile at combustion temperatures. > and we then have >the problem of how well sequestered this ash is, compared to the fuel rods >and such. Forgive me for stating a counter point as if it were a factoid. It >is just a possible conclusion if we wanted to do a fair evaluation of which >process screws us over the most.

Yes.  Coming from a coal mining family I can see both sides of the argument. Proper life cycle analysis would be appropriate for sure, but you have to appreciate the limits of the ‘numeric’ approach. >  c) Do all stakeholders agree on the criteria ? >   d) If not (c), then who the hell are you to impose a solution ? >Ah! The very heart of democracy.

Yes. > We all get a vote.

But we are not all well informed ! > But our votes can be >bought, re-educated, or even simply nullified by the leaders doing one thing >and telling us another.

Yes. > On the other hand, the physics of this is not a >voteable issue. The question is not if the stakeholder agrees, but if the >physics is complete and sound.

No.  That is simply wrong.  The physics is not subject to democratic process (though the elements of science you are taught may be).  None the less, the decision will necessarily be made by those with incomplete knowledge. To get a good environmental decision, it is just as important to have the decision makers understand the science as it is to have the science correct.  One can convey no benefit without the other. > I want the science right, then try to address >the public perceptions.

Order them whichever way you like –  you still have to deal with both to get an outcome that is fair to all stakeholders. Cheers, J/. — John Beardmore

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Would you kindly move your nuclear thoughts out of alt.solar.thermal, home of "practical uses for the sun’s heat"? Thanks. Nick

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> Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of contaminating a > state or two with radioactive isotopes.

I have never understood this: aren’t the wastes from nuclear plants a fairly small volume of material, easily contained? And which states have been contaminated and how much has it cost the taxpayer?

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In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals         6.30.04         Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769

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"N. Thornton"               wrote : "Roger Gt"                wrote : > "N. Thornton"           wrote : : > : > : > In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard : > : > : > Scientific Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy : > : > : > Political Ideals : > : > : > 6.30.04 Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, : >  Inc. : > http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769 : > : > : an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every : >  point it : > : > : made – at least out of the first third I read.  Regards, NT : : > : > Interesting choice of words! : > <snipped Authors reply> : : > : This further comment does not address the numerous and somewhat : >  dim : > : problems with the original article. While the article may get : >  people : > : thinking, and exercising their brains looking for all its : >  mistakes, : > : and thus learning something, the article’s conclusions are still : > : tripe.   Regards, NT : : > In your opinion?  Which is not the point!  Your saying that your : > context superimposed upon someone else’s article is more valid : > then the Authors own?  I see much I agree with, as well as some : > points I will privately question.  But it is too clearly : > addressing a real problem to dismiss so cavalierly! : > : > Roger Gt : : : Its too full of cockups to be taken seriously, IMHO. Should we go : through them one by one? I’d been trying to avoid it so far :) : Regards, NT You don’t get it.  Your opinion is worth what I paid for it!  :>) I will keep my own council on the value of the original work! Roger Gt

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Well yes if you read the resumes they go back that far. It’s not an opinion on the current administration just look how their families investment profile looks.Past ,present and future. mikell

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> The only drawback to nuclear power is emotion. The last few plants under > construction but never finished stand testament to that. The Cheney’s and > Bush’s have invested in oil and how to get it. That’s why we are where we’re > at today. > Yeah, right.  We haven’t built any nuke plants since the 80’s.  Oh, > I know, Bush and Cheney’s influence is so strong it goes back in time. > Yes, it’s emotionalism over reality that keeps us from having more > nuke plants.  But, blaming it on a politician you obviously don’t like > is asinine.

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… > I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’.  There is > also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’;  ’no > way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way > to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a > particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. > Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done > every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car > built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, > if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a > city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is > acceptable for nuclear waste.

I think the main issue with the nuclear waste is that all the past performance and extrapolations indicate that what is promised by politicians (keeping it safely) isn’t going to happen. More to the point, it especially won’t happen where they plan to do it. > And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our > predecessors?  Probably not very often. … How many generations were poisoned by > lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’?

People curse prior generations all the time. Anyone who has had to do any kind of toxic waste cleanup (including lead and asbestos) on their property usually has a bad opinion of previous standard practices and sometimes previous owners. Anyone who has come down sick due to toxic waste usually is not happy about it. The question is, should we do this ourselves? Should we knowingly poison and kill people in the future? Most folks would rather not. >For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against >terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal? > The same way you secure airplanes, public monuments, highways, everything > else.  By also being inventive.  Considering the number of airplanes > hijacked, the number of buildings attacked and the number of nuclear plants > not attacked, it would seem that nuclear plant security is working.

We do not secure any of these things very well. It’s just not possible. Security comes mainly from various police forces attempting to catch the dangerous people before they do something or, at least, not very long after they have. Anthony

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > : > In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard >  Scientific > : > Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals > : > 6.30.04 Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. > : > > : > >  http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769 > : an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every point it > : made – at least out of the first third I read. > : > : Regards, NT > Interesting choice of words! > A response from the author posted after the article might be in > order! > Mr. Verbeke… Thanks for your comment. You obviously have more > up-to-date information on costs of wind power than I do. The > purpose > of my article was not really to debate the economics of > alternative > energies, nor their possibilities — they are all indeed possible, > and if we are willing to pay the price, they have value in niche > markets and special applications. My intent was to point out that > certain realities of science make them impractical for backbone > energy resources. > For example, no amount of research will change the amount of solar > radiation striking the earth’s surface. This is a limiting factor > that can never be overcome no matter how many billions we spend on > research. > In the U.S, most renewable generation resources which operate in > the > black are able to do so only because of taxpayer subsidies. This > somewhat masks their true costs to energy consumers. As you say, > costs may in fact be reduced by further research, but this will > never > make them suitable as primary energy resources, simply because of > the > amount of energy we need in order to continue to grow. > We need energy today, and we have only so much money to spend on > research. Why not spend it on ways to make what we already have in > great abundance work to our advantage? Why abandoning these > abundant > resources and go in search of something which does not now exist > and > may never exist? > As for my "conveniently forget(ing) to mention that each year, > 100’s > of millions of birds are killed by the giant hood of the SUV’s > roaming on US highways and … by domestic cats," I would not have > mentioned it even if I had remembered it because it has nothing to > do > with the subject matter of developing a national energy strategy. > It is refreshing to know that a fellow engineer is reading my > article > and has taken the time to comment on it at such length. > Thanks again for doing so. — Richard Barker

This further comment does not address the numerous and somewhat dim problems with the original article. While the article may get people thinking, and exercising their brains looking for all its mistakes, and thus learning something, the article’s conclusions are still tripe. Regards, NT

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> The only drawback to nuclear power is emotion. The last few plants under > construction but never finished stand testament to that. The Cheney’s and > Bush’s have invested in oil and how to get it. That’s why we are where we’re > at today.

Yeah, right.  We haven’t built any nuke plants since the 80’s.  Oh, I know, Bush and Cheney’s influence is so strong it goes back in time. Yes, it’s emotionalism over reality that keeps us from having more nuke plants.  But, blaming it on a politician you obviously don’t like is asinine.

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: > : > : > : > : > Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of contaminating a : > state or two with radioactive isotopes. : : I have never understood this: aren’t the wastes from nuclear : plants a fairly small volume of material, easily contained? Yes, absolutely and it is common practice. : And which states have been contaminated and how much has it cost : the taxpayer? None, nor is it likely or even possible given the currently imposed standards for handling. Good questions, too many people take the anti-nuke kooks at their word with out checking. :

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>In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific >Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals     >6.30.04             Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. >http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769

blah.. blah… More scientific soothsaying.. and half truths.. Still using old prices for renewables.     Which are getting CHEAPER each year as scale of economy grows.     While the other sources are getting MORE expensive year by year. And using old stereotypes for wind power…  tsk..tsk..    The larger turbines have blades which are slow and visible enough that most birds can avoid them.  (reduced bird kills).   The author also ignores that the Sierra Club is NOW promoting wind power !   http://www.wind-works.org/articles/scsitingadvisory.html Nuclear may look cheap until you factor in the cost of contaminating a state or two with radioactive isotopes. Same goes for burning coal.  The emissions are a significant problem that will never go away, Dependence Foreign Oil..   Just look at the cost of Iraq operation..      Projected to be over ~250B$! Just to wrest control of it’s oil from Saddam! Imagine if that money had been put into conservation and renewables !

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > … > I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’. There is > also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no > way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way > to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a > particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. > Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done > every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car > built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, > if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a > city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is > acceptable for nuclear waste. > I think the main issue with the nuclear waste is that all the past > performance and extrapolations indicate that what is promised by > politicians (keeping it safely) isn’t going to happen.

Last time I checked, politicians weren’t designing things.  Just bi** about why some money should go to their favorite projects. More to the > point, it especially won’t happen where they plan to do it. > And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our > predecessors?  Probably not very often. … How many generations were poisoned by > lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’? > People curse prior generations all the time. Anyone who has had to > do any kind of toxic waste cleanup (including lead and asbestos) on > their property usually has a bad opinion of previous standard practices > and sometimes previous owners. Anyone who has come down sick due to > toxic waste usually is not happy about it. > The question is, should we do this ourselves? Should we knowingly > poison and kill people in the future? Most folks would rather not.

Is burying toxic waste in a well marked, guarded, monitored location ‘knowingly poisoning and killing’??  Nuclear or otherwise toxic?  How many barrels of toxic waste are being buryed every day with far less oversight/planning everyday?  What is being done about that? If burying nuclear waste is ‘unethical’, then so is burying many other toxic metals/toxins.  Considering the relative amounts and quantities involved, seems like we should be focusing on coal ash and lead batteries more than we are.  Yet these receive far less attention (haven’t seen Dan Rather saying anything about them on the 6 o’clock news).  And they may ‘poison and kill’ many in future generations than nuclear waste. daestrom

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> In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific > Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals   > 6.30.04            Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. > http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769

an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every point it made – at least out of the first third I read. Regards, NT

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> > Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > > has figured out what to do with it. >      Wrong.  Most waste is stored close the reactor because it is safer that > way.  Radioactive decay of used nuclear fuel occurs at an exponentially > decreasing rate.  That means that the bulk of the radiation is gone after a very > few years and then moving it to a permanent storage site becomes much safer. > Theft of recently used nuclear fuel is less of a problem because safely handling > it represents a big problem, and it is much more easily detectible than older > used fuel. >      The scientific/engineering community HAS figured out what to do with > nuclear waste, nuclear waste storage is now mostly a political problem because > of the misinformation and scare mongers. > Well, capital punishment doesn’t cost much, unless you include the > average of $2 million of lawyer’s fees it takes in the US.  Yes, the > process of getting someone to accept your 10,000 year radioactive > waste is expensive because of NIMBYism, but the expense is a real one > that must be paid. > Is it possible to bury a large volume of radioactive waste for a > longer period than civilization has yet existed?  Maybe.  Is it cheap? >  No.  Yucca mountain in the US hasn’t even opened yet, and the local > government in Nevada is doing everthing it can to stop it.  If you > tried to run the Europe and the US and Asia off of nuclear power, how > many yucca mountains would be needed, and what would the real expense > be?  Is it ethical to place this burden on people 1,000 years in the > future, when in truth there is no way to prove that a particular bit > of engineering will be reliable for that long?

I love these ‘arguments’ about ‘..there is no way to prove…..X’.  There is also ‘no way to prove the Brooklyn Bridge will be standing tomorrow’;  ’no way to prove the house you’re living in will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a particular tree will be standing tomorrow’; ‘no way to prove a particular airplane won’t fall out of the sky tomorrow’. Engineering can only build on past performance and extrapolate.  It’s done every day in every new building built, every new bridge built, every new car built.  It’s acceptable for 767’s to be built this way carrying thousands, if not millions of passengers in their lifetime.  Or every home built in a city.  Yet somehow the scaremonger’s and irrational don’t think it is acceptable for nuclear waste. And have you ever think about the burden’s that have been left us by our predecessors?  Probably not very often.  Yet who gave us racism, slavery, religious hatrid…??  We don’t go around blaming the ancient Egyptions or Romans for such things now, do we?  How many generations were poisoned by lead plumbing because of our ancestor’s??  Was that ‘ethical’? In 500 years, our progeny may be thanking us in their nightly prayers (or whatever passes for that in their time) for putting all of that valuable fissile and radioactive material in such a well marked location that they were able to find it and save them a lot of trouble.  They may use some of it for irradiating foods to limit spoilage; fueling their reactors; various medical and industrial processes. > For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against > terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal?

The same way you secure airplanes, public monuments, highways, everything else.  By also being inventive.  Considering the number of airplanes hijacked, the number of buildings attacked and the number of nuclear plants not attacked, it would seem that nuclear plant security is working. daestrom

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The only drawback to nuclear power is emotion. The last few plants under construction but never finished stand testament to that. The Cheney’s and Bush’s have invested in oil and how to get it. That’s why we are where we’re at today. mikell

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> Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > has figured out what to do with it.

     Wrong.  Most waste is stored close the reactor because it is safer that way.  Radioactive decay of used nuclear fuel occurs at an exponentially decreasing rate.  That means that the bulk of the radiation is gone after a very few years and then moving it to a permanent storage site becomes much safer. Theft of recently used nuclear fuel is less of a problem because safely handling it represents a big problem, and it is much more easily detectible than older used fuel.      The scientific/engineering community HAS figured out what to do with nuclear waste, nuclear waste storage is now mostly a political problem because of the misinformation and scare mongers. Vaughn

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: > In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard Scientific : > Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy Political Ideals : > 6.30.04 Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. : > : > http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769 : : an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every point it : made – at least out of the first third I read. : : Regards, NT Interesting choice of words! A response from the author posted after the article might be in order! Mr. Verbeke… Thanks for your comment. You obviously have more up-to-date information on costs of wind power than I do. The purpose of my article was not really to debate the economics of alternative energies, nor their possibilities — they are all indeed possible, and if we are willing to pay the price, they have value in niche markets and special applications. My intent was to point out that certain realities of science make them impractical for backbone energy resources. For example, no amount of research will change the amount of solar radiation striking the earth’s surface. This is a limiting factor that can never be overcome no matter how many billions we spend on research. In the U.S, most renewable generation resources which operate in the black are able to do so only because of taxpayer subsidies. This somewhat masks their true costs to energy consumers. As you say, costs may in fact be reduced by further research, but this will never make them suitable as primary energy resources, simply because of the amount of energy we need in order to continue to grow. We need energy today, and we have only so much money to spend on research. Why not spend it on ways to make what we already have in great abundance work to our advantage? Why abandoning these abundant resources and go in search of something which does not now exist and may never exist? As for my "conveniently forget(ing) to mention that each year, 100’s of millions of birds are killed by the giant hood of the SUV’s roaming on US highways and … by domestic cats," I would not have mentioned it even if I had remembered it because it has nothing to do with the subject matter of developing a national energy strategy. It is refreshing to know that a fellow engineer is reading my article and has taken the time to comment on it at such length. Thanks again for doing so. — Richard Barker

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> The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. > Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are > reactors that blew up completely.

     TMI did NOT blow up completly; in fact, it did not blow up at all, read the facts here: http://www.nrc.gov/reading-rm/doc-collections/fact-sheets/3mile-isle….. Chernobyl is a whole different deal, and something that can not happen in the US.  Why?  Because it happened first in 1957 at a place in the UK then called Windscale and we learned not to use graphite-moderated reactors for power production.  Instead, we use pressurized water reactors.  I respectfully suggest that you Google "Wigner reaction Windscale", read, and come back smarter. > Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles > away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated > and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen > tremendously. > Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is > far too great.

     Yes, I agree that we should not build graphite-moderated power producing nuclear reactors (the Chernobyl type).  Also, no nuclear reactors should be built without containment buildings (like Chernobyl).  By the way, this is pretty much the way we have always done it in the United States. Vaughn

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: >… : Would you kindly move your nuclear thoughts out of alt.solar.thermal, : home of "practical uses for the sun’s heat"? : : Thanks. : Nick Would you kindly use your delete key? This is interesting!

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Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one has figured out what to do with it.  Waste has to be contained basically for eternity, so you’re foisting a debt upon humanity that can never be repaid, so that you can watch silly programs on the TV for a few years. Whatever the volume, engineering for eternity is expensive; just look up ‘yucca mountain’.  Throughout the ages, all this waste will have to be guarded against both leakage and theft for blackmail or terrorism. There is a lot of waste even now; to use nuclear power to replace coal and provide power to growing nations would make the problem much worse.

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > "N. Thornton"           wrote > : > : > In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard > : > : > Scientific Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy > : > : > Political Ideals > : > : > 6.30.04 Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, >  Inc. > : > : > >  http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769 > : > : an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every >  point it > : > : made – at least out of the first third I read.  Regards, NT > : > Interesting choice of words! > <snipped Authors reply> > : This further comment does not address the numerous and somewhat >  dim > : problems with the original article. While the article may get >  people > : thinking, and exercising their brains looking for all its >  mistakes, > : and thus learning something, the article’s conclusions are still > : tripe.   Regards, NT > In your opinion?  Which is not the point!  Your saying that your > context superimposed upon someone else’s article is more valid > then the Authors own?  I see much I agree with, as well as some > points I will privately question.  But it is too clearly > addressing a real problem to dismiss so cavalierly! > Roger Gt

Its too full of cockups to be taken seriously, IMHO. Should we go through them one by one? I’d been trying to avoid it so far :) Regards, NT

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"Zebedee"          wrote : "Roger Gt"       wrote : > None, nor is it likely or even possible given the currently : > imposed standards for handling. : > : > Good questions, too many people take the anti-nuke kooks at their : > word with out checking. : : The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. : Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are : reactors that blew up completely. Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles : away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated : and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen : tremendously. : : Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is : far too great. : Yours – : Zebedee No one builds reactors like the one at Chernobyl now! However there have been more casualties from plants burning coal than nuclear reactors.  A lot of what you claim is hysteria generated by the Anti-nuke kooks, and it appears you are a member of that group. No other facility has had such an incident, and none are anticipated.  But you knew that! The French and Canadians are quietly building reactors and they are unlikely to take any un-necessary risks. Because something MAY happen, means you CAN prevent it, but disregarding a resource due to unreasonable fear of a possibility is just stupid!   You could not get out of bed in the morning if that was your normal mode!  You might get hit by a train on it’s way to pick up some Nuclear fuel!   :>)

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"N. Thornton"           wrote : "Roger Gt"            wrote : > "N. Thornton"       wrote : > : Phil Cook         wrote : : > : > In Search of a National Energy Strategy – Why Cold, Hard : > : > Scientific Realities Will Always Trump Warm, Fuzzy : > : > Political Ideals : > : > 6.30.04 Richard Barker, President & CEO, Quad Resources, Inc. : > : > : > http://www.energypulse.net/centers/article/article_display.cfm?a_id=769 : : > : an idiotic article with clearly false assumptions in every point it : > : made – at least out of the first third I read.  Regards, NT : > Interesting choice of words! <snipped Authors reply> : This further comment does not address the numerous and somewhat dim : problems with the original article. While the article may get people : thinking, and exercising their brains looking for all its mistakes, : and thus learning something, the article’s conclusions are still : tripe.   Regards, NT In your opinion?  Which is not the point!  Your saying that your context superimposed upon someone else’s article is more valid then the Authors own?  I see much I agree with, as well as some points I will privately question.  But it is too clearly addressing a real problem to dismiss so cavalierly! Roger Gt

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> None, nor is it likely or even possible given the currently > imposed standards for handling. > Good questions, too many people take the anti-nuke kooks at their > word with out checking.

The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are reactors that blew up completely. Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen tremendously. Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is far too great. — Yours Zebedee (Claiming asylum in an attempt to escape paying his debts to Dougal and Florence)

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> : Its too full of cockups to be taken seriously, IMHO. Should we >  go > : through them one by one? I’d been trying to avoid it so far :) > : Regards, NT > You don’t get it.  Your opinion is worth what I paid for it!  :>) > I will keep my own council on the value of the original work! > Roger Gt

ok :) heh

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> The problem with nuclear power is that the current reators aren’t safe. > Chernobyl was just one example, 3 mile island was another. These are > reactors that blew up completely.

        TMI blew up?  That would be news to everyone who lives right around it.   Making yourself look ignorant of basic fact does little to support your points.         I’m assuming that you are an American since most of the rest of the world is well aware of the percent of energy in Europe and Japan that is produced by Nuclear power.  The examples that you cite are 50+ year old designs which are all that is common in the US due to people like you NIMBYing any modern reactor construction.  It’s the equivalent of saying that modern cars aren’t safe since a ‘57 Chevy didn’t have seat belts, air bags, ABS, crumple zones, etc. > Chernobyl contaminated farms 2,000 miles > away. Meat from farms in Wales and milk from farms in Wales was contaminated > and had to be treated as toxic waste. Cancer across the area has risen > tremendously.

        You are exposed to FAR more radioactive waste from Coal fired power plants than Chernobyl.  Take a look at http://www.ornl.gov/info/ornlreview/rev26-34/text/colmain.html for a scope of the actual numbers.         We have much more to worry about from the existing coal energy production infrastructure than new nuclear development. > Because the accidents can be so severe for even a minor failure, the risk is > far too great.

        Modern designs are self-limiting.  That is to say they can not go critical (which neither Chernobyl nor TMI were in danger of anyway) but will in fact naturally "fail safe."         Bill

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Most waste right now is stored close to the reactor, becuase no one > has figured out what to do with it. >      Wrong.  Most waste is stored close the reactor because it is safer that > way.  Radioactive decay of used nuclear fuel occurs at an exponentially > decreasing rate.  That means that the bulk of the radiation is gone after a very > few years and then moving it to a permanent storage site becomes much safer. > Theft of recently used nuclear fuel is less of a problem because safely handling > it represents a big problem, and it is much more easily detectible than older > used fuel. >      The scientific/engineering community HAS figured out what to do with > nuclear waste, nuclear waste storage is now mostly a political problem because > of the misinformation and scare mongers.

Well, capital punishment doesn’t cost much, unless you include the average of $2 million of lawyer’s fees it takes in the US.  Yes, the process of getting someone to accept your 10,000 year radioactive waste is expensive because of NIMBYism, but the expense is a real one that must be paid. Is it possible to bury a large volume of radioactive waste for a longer period than civilization has yet existed?  Maybe.  Is it cheap?  No.  Yucca mountain in the US hasn’t even opened yet, and the local government in Nevada is doing everthing it can to stop it.  If you tried to run the Europe and the US and Asia off of nuclear power, how many yucca mountains would be needed, and what would the real expense be?  Is it ethical to place this burden on people 1,000 years in the future, when in truth there is no way to prove that a particular bit of engineering will be reliable for that long? For that matter, how do you secure nuclear plants and wastes against terrorists who have proven to be both inventive and suicidal?

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> Well yes if you read the resumes they go back that far. It’s not an opinion > on the current administration just look how their families investment > profile looks.Past ,present and future.

This just in: businesses compete with each other.

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Wow Brian, for once we agree : ) I think that it’s a self fulfilling prophecy. I grew up on the Canadian border, so I was able to see the differences firsthand. In addition to placing a high priority on government arts funding, they also have Canadian Content laws (CANCON), which stipulate that x% of media output must be uniquely Canadian in origin. In America, this would be decried as an interference in the free market. The odd thing is Americans picked up  the Canadian TV and radio broadcasts, and started digging Canadian music. The Barenaked Ladies were huge on the border long before they broke big in the US. Even Bands like Lowest of the Low, Kim Mitchell, and The Tragically Hip could fill arenas in Buffalo and Detroit, even though they couldn’t fill a corner bar below the Pennsylvania border. People know what they like, and like what they know. The fewer outlets that are available for art, whether it’s rock music, or a Dutch Masters exhibit, the fewer people will be exposed to it, and the less they will care when it’s gone. — John Check out www.js3jazz.com to hear my tunes and get FREE bass lessons

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I just question whether it is a legitimate purpose of > government (which, in my opinion, is not the same entity as "society") > to sponsor art. > There are no absolutes as to what the proper role of government is. > Sponsoring art is a legitimate purpose of government, if we decide that it > is a legitimate purpose. > If the government were to give money to a corporation to > keep it solvent when the free market would not support it, some would > decry that as corporate welfare. > Well, you’re going to have your knee-jerk-reactionary types no matter what > you do… > Why are artists who cannot attract > patrons any different? > Because the purpose of art is not to make a profit.  The value of art is > intrinsic. > Regarding your Jaco example, I think most creative endeavors are driven > by the artist’s urge to create, not by profitability studies. > Not if you’re talking about major record labels!  Which Columbia certainly > was, in 1976. > So yes, I > believe Jaco’s solo albums would have been produced because the demand > was there. > But what John asked is, would they be produced in today’s music-business > climate?  The answer is clear — not by any major label.  Not by a long > shot. > … > The bottom line (for me) is that our contribution to the NEA through tax > dollars is not voluntary, even if you approve of the use. > I am not a fan of the NEA, the fact that my tax dollars are taken for it, or > the "art" which it sponsors.  If I had the choice, I would not contribute to > it.

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I know Shambat; I am bipolar myself, and have been all my life. I don’t think there is any advantage in it though. The "high" side increases your energy and removes any inhibitions; I think people mistake that for genius. However, you pay for it on the "low" side. I agree with you about the treatment part. I put it off for years because of that reason,  until I just couldn’t cope on my own anymore. I’ve been on medication for a few years now, and I find I’m much more focused and creative now than at any other time in my life. I do miss the highs, but I sure as hell don’t miss the lows. It’s too bad Jaco didn’t give meds a chance. — John Check out www.js3jazz.com to hear my tunes and get FREE bass lessons – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I can tell you from experience that’s a crock of shit. If anything, Jaco was > successful DESPITE his mental illness, not because of it. > I believe that being bipolar increases a person’s chances of leaving > behind a unique body of creative work when he dies young. > Most bipolar people I know prefer not to be treated because they don’t > want to lose those times of productivity and clarity, even when they > know that paranoia and depression will inevitably follow. > -Donna

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Thanks for the response. I certainly concede the social benefits of a healthy arts community, and as tax expenditures go I agree that the NEA constitutes a miniscule portion of the budget. We would probably agree on a number of government excesses, but oil wars and $400 hammers aren’t the (off) topic. I just question whether it is a legitimate purpose of government (which, in my opinion, is not the same entity as "society") to sponsor art. If the government were to give money to a corporation to keep it solvent when the free market would not support it, some would decry that as corporate welfare. Why are artists who cannot attract patrons any different? Regarding your Jaco example, I think most creative endeavors are driven by the artist’s urge to create, not by profitability studies. So yes, I believe Jaco’s solo albums would have been produced because the demand was there.  22 years ago or so, my band produced an album, which immediately (and mercifully) sank into obscurity. Why? Because there was no demand. Should the government have subsidized us to allow us to express ourselves? The listening public should be grateful that it did not! The bottom line (for me) is that our contribution to the NEA through tax dollars is not voluntary, even if you approve of the use. Thanks again for the discussion, Steve

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    Hey John,     I’m Unipolar myself, I’d never heard of it before until I was diagnosed last year…it’s the same as Bipolar only without the "high" part.     I took meds for a while, and they helped but not for long and had weird side effects (nightmares, stuff like that)…I find that having a gig every week and some friends to go out with helps more than pills ever did.     I don’t know how having clinical depression effects ones creativity, but I think not having to deal with any of it would be far better than being so down that you need to write a song about it.     -Jonathan     www.badspatula.com

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I know Shambat; I am bipolar myself, and have been all my life. I don’t > think there is any advantage in it though. The "high" side increases your > energy and removes any inhibitions; I think people mistake that for genius. > However, you pay for it on the "low" side. > I agree with you about the treatment part. I put it off for years because of > that reason,  until I just couldn’t cope on my own anymore. > I’ve been on medication for a few years now, and I find I’m much more > focused and creative now than at any other time in my life. I do miss the > highs, but I sure as hell don’t miss the lows. It’s too bad Jaco didn’t give > meds a chance. > — > John > Check out www.js3jazz.com to hear my tunes and get FREE bass lessons > > I can tell you from experience that’s a crock of shit. If anything, Jaco > was > > successful DESPITE his mental illness, not because of it. > I believe that being bipolar increases a person’s chances of leaving > behind a unique body of creative work when he dies young. > Most bipolar people I know prefer not to be treated because they don’t > want to lose those times of productivity and clarity, even when they > know that paranoia and depression will inevitably follow. > -Donna

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> I just question whether it is a legitimate purpose of > government (which, in my opinion, is not the same entity as "society") > to sponsor art.

There are no absolutes as to what the proper role of government is. Sponsoring art is a legitimate purpose of government, if we decide that it is a legitimate purpose. > If the government were to give money to a corporation to > keep it solvent when the free market would not support it, some would > decry that as corporate welfare.

Well, you’re going to have your knee-jerk-reactionary types no matter what you do… > Why are artists who cannot attract > patrons any different?

Because the purpose of art is not to make a profit.  The value of art is intrinsic. > Regarding your Jaco example, I think most creative endeavors are driven > by the artist’s urge to create, not by profitability studies.

Not if you’re talking about major record labels!  Which Columbia certainly was, in 1976. > So yes, I > believe Jaco’s solo albums would have been produced because the demand > was there.

But what John asked is, would they be produced in today’s music-business climate?  The answer is clear — not by any major label.  Not by a long shot. … > The bottom line (for me) is that our contribution to the NEA through tax > dollars is not voluntary, even if you approve of the use.

I am not a fan of the NEA, the fact that my tax dollars are taken for it, or the "art" which it sponsors.  If I had the choice, I would not contribute to it.

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> I can tell you from experience that’s a crock of shit. If anything, Jaco was > successful DESPITE his mental illness, not because of it.

I believe that being bipolar increases a person’s chances of leaving behind a unique body of creative work when he dies young. Most bipolar people I know prefer not to be treated because they don’t want to lose those times of productivity and clarity, even when they know that paranoia and depression will inevitably follow. -Donna

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Basste, that was an incredible post. Finally we can agree on something ;-) — This nascent group of rag-tag ex-food service slingers aims to please you, the listener. Check us out at: http://echofission.com

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> no. I don’t want to be another, because of his skill/succes/chance > i just work on me to be a better person, in all ways, little by little. I > would really like to be a genius bassist; but not a jaco, nor a wooten or > other. i’m happy to be here, in my life, and try everyday to make it better. > :) > — > basst

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>As far as beating psoriasis, my Doctors and I are treating this as a 100% >fungal infection. … >  We are treating this as a whole body 100% body contamination of different >fungal infections.  All medication that I am taking is for fungal infection.

Besides the Soriatane, what? >I am very concerned of awareness.  True that I have thought that I would >rather be dead, Than having psoriasis.  But now I am thinking about >teenagers who might have this dreaded skin problem.  And if it is true that >children and grownups are being suicidal, and are caring those thoughts out. >I am not going to sit on my ass and let it happen.

Being a kid or a teen with this has got to be the worst, true enough. I was spared that. Just watch out for the chance that the Soriatane might get hold of your mind while it’s clearing your skin, there have been reports of stuff like that, though it’s not admitted by the company or seriously proven by anyone. It’s great to help out with awareness on this stuff.  Do you know about the National Psoriasis Foundation?  Thats http://www.psoriasis.org (make sure about the .org part or you end up somewhere else) J.

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Keep On Smilin’ Dave’s of the world. :)

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Hey, I forgot to mention this conspiracy of guys named David talking >to each other on the newsgroup.  What’s up with that? > Dunno, myself.  Thank the powers-that-be my name is Dave. > – Dave W. > http://psorsite.com/

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> As far as beating psoriasis, my Doctors and I are treating this as a 100% > fungal infection. > Being contagious and not hereditary. (If hereditary then I would just give > up and accept it.)  That is to say why I am constantly about keeping things > washed and cleaned that I come into contact with. If hereditary why bother > keeping things clean and dry.  Just accept it and don’t worry about it. >   We are treating this as a whole body 100% body contamination of different > fungal infections.  All medication that I am taking is for fungal infection. > Not using any steroid creams, or anything not made to fight a fungal > infection.

Soriatane isn’t for fungal infections.  It’s for psoriasis.  See the web site    http://www.soriatane.com/ and read.  Look at the part where the manufacturers say,    "No one knows exactly what causes psoriasis.     But we do know that it’s not contagious, and     that it tends to occur in families." Look at this acitretin monograph:    http://www.rxlist.com/cgi/generic3/acitretin_ids.htm and find the part where it says that acitretin can be used to treat fungal infections.  You won’t, because that is _not_ what it’s for. Psoriasis does _NOT_ mean that you or your environment is "dirty" in any way. That kind of belief has gotten lots of kids scrubbed until they’re raw, from angry parents who thought the kids weren’t washing, and simply had "dirty elbows."  It’s horrific, and it’s fairly horrible you’re doing it to yourself. People try to keep their environments clean and dry in order to stay healthy, but not all diseases come from inadequate hygiene.  Cancers, psoriasis, multiple sclerosis, cycstic fibrosis, hemophilia, etc. are _NOT_ caused by infections, and can strike no matter how obsessive you are about cleanliness. If your doctors are giving you these ideas, it’s time to (a) get new doctors, and (b) report your current doctors to the State medical board, so that he can’t fill other patients’ heads with fabrications. – Dave W. http://psorsite.com/

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>  At times I feel that the doctors are getting rich off of us and they know >the cure.  They just  keep us on the edge.

As far as this one point, all I can say is that I’m pretty sure that the doctors that I’ve visited don’t know of any cure.  They don’t seem to know much about psoriasis at all. I wish I could blame it on someone or something.  I spend some dark moments trying … … but if life gives you lemons, it’s better to make lemonade. — ****** It occurs to me that Soriatane and related drugs have been accused of inducing thoughts of suicide. ****** Hey, you say you are seeing improvement.  That’s a good thing.  But, if you are still feeling really down (and we all understand that you still have plenty of real reasons for that!) you might want to get off the drug NOW, or at least talk to the doctor about it.  Maybe there’s some happy pill they can give you to counter it?  Meanwhile, have some ice-cream or something!  Screw the condition and the facts, feel good anyway! J.

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….. >   At times I feel that the doctors are getting rich off of us and they know > the cure.

David – Please don’t take this personally. I understand you are under financial stress and medical stress, but I have to say something in regards to your comment above. My comment is below. Has everyone gone CRAZY?  Is there something in the water or something that is causing all the paranoia I’m seeing these days?  I’m starting to get worried.

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>Has everyone gone CRAZY?  Is there something in the water or something that >is causing all the paranoia I’m seeing these days?  I’m starting to get >worried.

http://directory.google.com/Top/Society/Issues/Conspiracy/?il=1 It’s very fashionable these days.   Myself, I worry much more about rampant idiocy than conspiracy. J.

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Hey, I forgot to mention this conspiracy of guys named David talking to each other on the newsgroup.  What’s up with that? J.

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>Hey, I forgot to mention this conspiracy of guys named David talking >to each other on the newsgroup.  What’s up with that?

Dunno, myself.  Thank the powers-that-be my name is Dave. – Dave W. http://psorsite.com/

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True that I am very happy about my psoriasis going into "remission".  My Doctors and I all believe that in three months I will have no signs of this condition and that also I believe that it will never appear again if I continue the efforts which I have been going through. It has been very hard work needing a lot of self-discipline.  Constantly changing clothes, bed sheets, towels, and anything else which I come into contact with. My Doctors agree that stress holds true of  psoriasis.  We are doing our best at keeping stress to a minimal.  But now we are fighting insurance companies for them to do their part.  In the mean time, I keep a good attitude and hold faith that everything will work out. As far as beating psoriasis, my Doctors and I are treating this as a 100% fungal infection. Being contagious and not hereditary. (If hereditary then I would just give up and accept it.)  That is to say why I am constantly about keeping things washed and cleaned that I come into contact with. If hereditary why bother keeping things clean and dry.  Just accept it and don’t worry about it.   We are treating this as a whole body 100% body contamination of different fungal infections.  All medication that I am taking is for fungal infection. Not using any steroid creams, or anything not made to fight a fungal infection.  All I can say that its working for me.    Its guess its time to have some ice-cream after this. I am very concerned of awareness.  True that I have thought that I would rather be dead, Than having psoriasis.  But now I am thinking about teenagers who might have this dreaded skin problem.  And if it is true that children and grownups are being suicidal, and are caring those thoughts out. I am not going to sit on my ass and let it happen.  I will fight for public awareness, so that I can do something about it.  I am happy for myself and the Doctors whom I now trust.  When I am better should everything I have learned be forgotten?  I am cured, to hell with everyone else?  Not me.  I am just getting started. Thanks for your time. David – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> ****** > It occurs to me that Soriatane and related drugs have been accused of > inducing thoughts of suicide. > ****** > Hey, you say you are seeing improvement.  That’s a good thing.  But, > if you are still feeling really down (and we all understand that you > still have plenty of real reasons for that!) you might want to get off > the drug NOW, or at least talk to the doctor about it.  Maybe there’s > some happy pill they can give you to counter it?  Meanwhile, have some > ice-cream or something!  Screw the condition and the facts, feel good > anyway! > J.

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Hello everyone my name is David and I live in Oklahoma, I have had this damn problem for about 11 years.  Living with the pain, hiding my skin from other people because I am afraid that they will think that I am contagious or deformed.  I am very happily married so I don’t have to live with the pain of not finding a girlfriend or future wife.  I was very fortunate to have found this woman. I have not been working for about 2 months now.  I am afraid of losing my house let alone paying for being on the internet.  At the moment I have medical Insurance and about to seek an attorney because my sick leave payments have not yet started. I have been reading the other posts and they make me sad.  Everyone here knows the pain and agony of having psoriasis all to well.  With the hope of the psoriasis going into remission, then days later it comes back.   At times I feel that the doctors are getting rich off of us and they know the cure.  They just  keep us on the edge.  So that we will keep going back to doctors and "we" are just keeping their billfolds thick while we suffer. With these very expensive medications we are supporting major drug companies. With the medication that I am taking, it costs $525 for just a one month supply.  Thank God that I have medical insurance to cover that cost.  So out of pocket it only costs me $25.     I have a dream, that one day, a doctor will be truthful with me, and tell me that their is a cure.  This skin disease may not kill like AIDS, but it does kill.  There are to many people out there who does not have any support group like this so that we can vent our anger and depression.  The number of suicides of people with psoriasis would probably shock us all. And how many people actually commits suicide because they do have psoriasis? Anybody know the answer to that question?  I want to know.   I care. I have also have heard that psoriasis is not contagious but  is past through our genes.  This skin disease is not hereditary.  It is contagious. Sorry to have made this posting so long, I just had to say what was on my mind.  Sorry if I a fended anyone.  But this is the first time that I was able to voice my opinion and feelings of this shit called psoriasis.  Thanks for reading David

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Hi.. me again :-(    Well, it happened. My primary care doctor decided that SINCE I went to the pain clinic that he would only give me two weeks worth of medication. I had hoped and prayed that the pain clinic would decide a treatment plan before I ran out. I tried really hard to limit my usage but my life is just too demanding physically.    I’ve been suffering withdrawls since Friday. I finally got irritated enough to call my primary care doctors office on Saturday. Of course, my regular doctor was not on call. His associate was. Not only was the guy rude but he totally refused to rx ANY narcotics period. I said, look, I understand that and am NOT expecting you to rx any narcotics. I want you to HELP me get THROUGH this withdrawl. Needless to say, he flat refused. I tried to be persistent. I said what am I supposed to do? He had absolutely no answers for me.     Yesterday, I went into such a deep depression that I believe if I had a gun I would have done it. The depression, I realise is part of withdrawl but it was horrific. The utter despair that you feel. I feel even now that hope is not in my future.    Many of the older posters here have been with me since my first post. Look at what I have gone through!! I just am not sure that I can continue to handle it anymore.    It’s like a wheel that my rats run on. I hurt, I get meds, the meds are not strong enough to actually help the pain, so I still hurt. Then I don’t have meds and withdrawl. Then I get meds and start the cycle all over again. I just cannot take it. On or off medication my life seems pretty bleak right now.    Sure, Sure not feeling human is part of withdrawl… but, I realised something. I have not felt human for a very VERY long time.    I stayed away from the group when not in pain because of the flames. I tend to say really dumb things sometimes or I state something that someone takes the wrong way and end up getting flamed.    I don’t know what to do and I do not think I can handle this. Tammy

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>Hi.. me again :-(

                                <snippage> – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->   Many of the older posters here have been with me since my first post. >Look at what I have gone through!! I just am not sure that I can continue to >handle it anymore. >   It’s like a wheel that my rats run on. I hurt, I get meds, the meds are >not strong enough to actually help the pain, so I still hurt. Then I don’t >have meds and withdrawl. Then I get meds and start the cycle all over again. >I just cannot take it. On or off medication my life seems pretty bleak right >now. >   Sure, Sure not feeling human is part of withdrawl… but, I realised >something. I have not felt human for a very VERY long time. >   I stayed away from the group when not in pain because of the flames. I >tend to say really dumb things sometimes or I state something that someone >takes the wrong way and end up getting flamed. >   I don’t know what to do and I do not think I can handle this. >Tammy

    Tammy, if everyone stayed away for those reasons…there wouldn’t BE a pain group!  :-)     I understand what you’re going through Tammy..honestly I do. I’m so sorry that this doctor turned out to be another of ‘them"  Please don’t let those "bad apples" you’ve seen cause you to stop seeking what you need.   As you know, there are several sies which offer a referral. Please don’t let THEM win!  If you need help finding the sites again, please write me, and I’ll look for them and send them to you again. You may be feeling horrible now, but look at it as just another low spot, and another doctor you had to get past to find the one who WILL take good care of you…there IS help. To start out, there is emergency help as well as doctor referral info on the site David Lambourne brought to us..              http://www.painfoundation.org/ Please look around here, check the link for "PainAid" perhaps you’ll find what you need. There are also experts there for you to ask all sorts of questions. Take good care please,  codeee

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >     Tammy, if everyone stayed away for those reasons…there wouldn’t > BE a pain group!  :-) >     I understand what you’re going through Tammy..honestly I do. I’m > so sorry that this doctor turned out to be another of ‘them"  Please > don’t let those "bad apples" you’ve seen cause you to stop seeking > what you need. >   As you know, there are several sies which offer a referral. Please > don’t let THEM win!  If you need help finding the sites again, please > write me, and I’ll look for them and send them to you again. > You may be feeling horrible now, but look at it as just another low > spot, and another doctor you had to get past to find the one who WILL > take good care of you…there IS help. > To start out, there is emergency help as well as doctor referral info > on the site David Lambourne brought to us.. >              http://www.painfoundation.org/ > Please look around here, check the link for "PainAid" perhaps you’ll > find what you need. There are also experts there for you to ask all > sorts of questions. > Take good care please, >  codeee

 Codeee,    Thanks for replying. I still feel alone :-( The other reason I think I stay away is because this place reminds me that I am in pain. It reminds me of all the issues connected to being in pain. I am defignitely trying to avoid the entire issue when I am medicated and able to live… :-(    It’s times like this that it all comes back to me and I start to realize how hopeless everything really is. Tammy

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->     Tammy, if everyone stayed away for those reasons…there wouldn’t > BE a pain group!  :-) >     I understand what you’re going through Tammy..honestly I do. I’m > so sorry that this doctor turned out to be another of ‘them"  Please > don’t let those "bad apples" you’ve seen cause you to stop seeking > what you need. >   As you know, there are several sies which offer a referral. Please > don’t let THEM win!  If you need help finding the sites again, please > write me, and I’ll look for them and send them to you again. > You may be feeling horrible now, but look at it as just another low > spot, and another doctor you had to get past to find the one who WILL > take good care of you…there IS help. > To start out, there is emergency help as well as doctor referral info > on the site David Lambourne brought to us.. >              http://www.painfoundation.org/ > Please look around here, check the link for "PainAid" perhaps you’ll > find what you need. There are also experts there for you to ask all > sorts of questions. > Take good care please, >  codeee > Codeee, >   Thanks for replying. I still feel alone :-( >The other reason I think I stay away is because this place reminds me that I >am in pain. It reminds me of all the issues connected to being in pain. I am >defignitely trying to avoid the entire issue when I am medicated and able to >live… :-( >   It’s times like this that it all comes back to me and I start to realize >how hopeless everything really is. >Tammy

        I know it sounds bleak and hopeless now Tammy…many of us know how that feels.  The good side is that many have found a way out of it, and help.  Please keep fighting for "YOU"..you’re worth it, and it may take some time FOR yourself…but it can be done! codeee

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Don’t give up Tammy.  Please.  Give the Pain Clinic a chance to get you on a proper pain regimen, and if they do not seek help elsewhere.  I went through tree years of hell until I found my pain managment doctor.  He literally saved my life.  I know you will be able to find help and relief if you just don’t give up.  Life will get better if you stick with it.  Good luck and may you be pain free soon. sz

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi.. me again :-( >    Well, it happened. My primary care doctor decided that SINCE I went to > the pain clinic that he would only give me two weeks worth of medication. I > had hoped and prayed that the pain clinic would decide a treatment plan > before I ran out. I tried really hard to limit my usage but my life is just > too demanding physically. >    I’ve been suffering withdrawls since Friday. I finally got irritated > enough to call my primary care doctors office on Saturday. Of course, my > regular doctor was not on call. His associate was. Not only was the guy rude > but he totally refused to rx ANY narcotics period. I said, look, I > understand that and am NOT expecting you to rx any narcotics. I want you to > HELP me get THROUGH this withdrawl. Needless to say, he flat refused. I > tried to be persistent. I said what am I supposed to do? He had absolutely > no answers for me. >     Yesterday, I went into such a deep depression that I believe if I had a > gun I would have done it. The depression, I realise is part of withdrawl but > it was horrific. The utter despair that you feel. I feel even now that hope > is not in my future. >    Many of the older posters here have been with me since my first post. > Look at what I have gone through!! I just am not sure that I can continue to > handle it anymore. >    It’s like a wheel that my rats run on. I hurt, I get meds, the meds are > not strong enough to actually help the pain, so I still hurt. Then I don’t > have meds and withdrawl. Then I get meds and start the cycle all over again. > I just cannot take it. On or off medication my life seems pretty bleak right > now. >    Sure, Sure not feeling human is part of withdrawl… but, I realised > something. I have not felt human for a very VERY long time. >    I stayed away from the group when not in pain because of the flames. I > tend to say really dumb things sometimes or I state something that someone > takes the wrong way and end up getting flamed. >    I don’t know what to do and I do not think I can handle this. > Tammy

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Tammy I hope by the time you read this you have really considered Richards advice. Ronnie

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi.. me again :-( >    Well, it happened. My primary care doctor decided that SINCE I went to > the pain clinic that he would only give me two weeks worth of medication. > I > had hoped and prayed that the pain clinic would decide a treatment plan > before I ran out. I tried really hard to limit my usage but my life is > just > too demanding physically. >    I’ve been suffering withdrawls since Friday. I finally got irritated > enough to call my primary care doctors office on Saturday. Of course, my > regular doctor was not on call. His associate was. Not only was the guy > rude > but he totally refused to rx ANY narcotics period. I said, look, I > understand that and am NOT expecting you to rx any narcotics. I want you > to > HELP me get THROUGH this withdrawl. Needless to say, he flat refused. I > tried to be persistent. I said what am I supposed to do? He had absolutely > no answers for me. >     Yesterday, I went into such a deep depression that I believe if I had > a > gun I would have done it. The depression, I realise is part of withdrawl > but > it was horrific. The utter despair that you feel. I feel even now that > hope > is not in my future. >    Many of the older posters here have been with me since my first post. > Look at what I have gone through!! I just am not sure that I can continue > to > handle it anymore. >    It’s like a wheel that my rats run on. I hurt, I get meds, the meds are > not strong enough to actually help the pain, so I still hurt. Then I don’t > have meds and withdrawl. Then I get meds and start the cycle all over > again. > I just cannot take it. On or off medication my life seems pretty bleak > right > now. >    Sure, Sure not feeling human is part of withdrawl… but, I realised > something. I have not felt human for a very VERY long time. >    I stayed away from the group when not in pain because of the flames. I > tend to say really dumb things sometimes or I state something that someone > takes the wrong way and end up getting flamed. >    I don’t know what to do and I do not think I can handle this. > Tammy > Tammy , >    Saying dumb things and getting flamed is irrelevant > compared to not wanting to go on anymore . There > have been so many times I have just wanted to give > up , but I always talk myself into holding on a little > longer . I have driven myself to the E.R. and told > the triage nurse that I want to die . I went there > because I was serious and didn’t know if I could make > it through the day . I was surprised at the high level > of treatment I received for feeling suicidal . >    Tammy , if withdrawal has you suicidal , go to the > E.R. Just do it . There are meds that can ease your > withdrawals and meds that can lift your spirits . > You have a right to adequate and proper care , > especially in an emergency . Please consider it . > Peace , > Richard

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>Hey Me again… >   I woke up this morning actually feeling okay. Is that the difference between addicts and dependancy? I hurt badly. However, most of the horrid withdrawl is gone. I have read all over the web that this will take months to recover from (withdrawl). It apparently is mostly over for me? How come? I am real confused now. >    I am not depressed as much anymore. I am frustrated that I cannot help our financial situation by working. I am tired of being in pain. That never seems to change. I am just confused as to why I do not have withdrawl symptoms still? >Tammy

The first part is wonderul news!   Don’t question, be happy they’re mostly over Tammy! It does sound as though your physical dependancy on them is over, and if you were "addicted" to them, the cravings..(not WD symptoms), but cravings  would be overshelming. The fact that you were able to do this, without falling apart should count for something in the eys  of a new doctor!  That’s one less thing to deal with as you put "Operation Tammy’s Doctor" into effect.   This is teh perfect time to focus your energy upon finding yourself  a good one who won’t play games, and will provide you the means to get what you need to lessen the pain.  Please don’t leave ay rock unturned….this dark period in your life, may well lead o the major breakthrough”that you need.. codeee

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Tammy, It has been a long time since I posted here because of the flame wars, this is not the place to get that when you are here for support. I understand your staying away 100%. I also am responding because like you, I was thrown into heavy withdrawals. To begin with I was on heavy diluadid for 5 years and cut off with only a small taper down period. This gave me very bad shakes which led to high blood pressure, with almost a stroke in the meantime. It has been 4 months and I am still withdrawing, I have a new doctor who still has just got around to getting my medicine back in line. What I would like for you to do is go to the hospital this quack of yours is tied to. Find the founders names of the system and write them a lot letters, emails, phone calls even meet them in the parking lot. The more top guys the better. Tell them everything about what is going on. If you get your complaining done right, I promise you something will be done. They will investigate these quacks, even go into their office and start going through their records. The more noise you make the more will be done. You can possibly shut down some quacks and run them out of business. I got this smartass x pain doctor who wishes I was dead because I brought the wrath of the medical community down on his ass and he is on the verge of losing his practice. He nearly cost me my life with the withdrawal damage. If not for some quick thinking of changing doctors and a lot of begging to investigate my withdrawals, I would not have made it this far. Death was so close just from the pain of not having my medicine. I have developed tremors directly from having my medicine taken from me. Now is not the time to cave in until you get the message out to anyone who can destroy the guy who is trying to destroy you. You got nothing to lose sister. Take these bastards out before they do you. You can become his worse nightmare this way. Quacks hate it when go over their heads. Please do not take this from a quack. It is illegal for them to do this to you. I got thoughts and prayers for you, Withdrawal is worse than a head on wreck, Thanks for listening…… 1956

Hi.. me again :-(    Well, it happened. My primary care doctor decided that SINCE I went to the pain clinic that he would only give me two weeks worth of medication. I had hoped and prayed that the pain clinic would decide a treatment plan before I ran out. I tried really hard to limit my usage but my life is just too demanding physically.    I’ve been suffering withdrawls since Friday. I finally got irritated enough to call my primary care doctors office on Saturday. Of course, my regular doctor was not on call. His associate was. Not only was the guy rude but he totally refused to rx ANY narcotics period. I said, look, I understand that and am NOT expecting you to rx any narcotics. I want you to HELP me get THROUGH this withdrawl. Needless to say, he flat refused. I tried to be persistent. I said what am I supposed to do? He had absolutely no answers for me.     Yesterday, I went into such a deep depression that I believe if I had a gun I would have done it. The depression, I realise is part of withdrawl but it was horrific. The utter despair that you feel. I feel even now that hope is not in my future.    Many of the older posters here have been with me since my first post. Look at what I have gone through!! I just am not sure that I can continue to handle it anymore.    It’s like a wheel that my rats run on. I hurt, I get meds, the meds are not strong enough to actually help the pain, so I still hurt. Then I don’t have meds and withdrawl. Then I get meds and start the cycle all over again. I just cannot take it. On or off medication my life seems pretty bleak right now.    Sure, Sure not feeling human is part of withdrawl… but, I realised something. I have not felt human for a very VERY long time.    I stayed away from the group when not in pain because of the flames. I tend to say really dumb things sometimes or I state something that someone takes the wrong way and end up getting flamed.    I don’t know what to do and I do not think I can handle this. Tammy

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I have had P for about 35 years.  During that time I have had bouts of PA  in multiple joints with self limiting duration.  It seems that in the last 5 years after having had stomach surgery and not allowed to take NSAID’s for the arthritis, I have developed a pretty severe case of Fibromyalgia.  My Rhematologist think the Fibromyalgia is related the PA and has just started me on Enbrel….took my first shot today. I am taking narcotics and anti-anxiety meds now to cope with daily life, especially at night.  Have been through the gamut of antidepressants but side effects have lead me away from all of them.   I was just wondering if anyone has any experience with Enbrel and Fibromyalgia… I hope this helps, but I am used to failure. H

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>I was just wondering if anyone has any experience with Enbrel and >Fibromyalgia… I hope this helps, but I am used to failure.

Nothing firsthand, but I see on the fibro group that they’ve been trying Enbrel there for several years now.  Maybe you’ve used up all the bad luck and this one will work for you, here’s hoping! J.

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Today I saw my doctor who prescribes anti-depressants for me (psychiatrist). We were discussing my pain meds and he suggested I take something longer acting than hydrocodone (Norco) which I am now taking, since they tend to make me depressed, etc.  He said possibly the duragesic patch or MS Contin might be better, and to discuss this with my pain doc.  What do you folks think about it?  I’ve been seeing the psychiatrist for about 13 years (for anti-depressant medication only – no therapy, per se). I’d appreciate your input.  Thanks, Editor

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<snippage> >We were discussing my pain meds and he suggested I take something longer >acting

You didn’t say what is causing your pain. Is it backpain, migraines or what? That would make a difference in the type of med a person would take. > He said possibly the duragesic patch or MS Contin >might be better, and to discuss this with my pain doc.  What do you folks >think about it?  

I have never used the MS Contin, but I do use the duragesic patches and for my type of nerve pain they work great.  They don’t take the pain completely away, nothing will, but it does bring the pain to a level I can tolerate it. Good luck and keep us posted. Sue We survive together or not at all.

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Hi Richard, Interesting, it was the other way round for me. Oxycodone brightened me up, whereas Duragesic patch depressed me. Strange, as Fentanyl IV doesn’t have that effect at all. Morphine and Demerol in more than low dose makes it very hard for me to sleep, however. It just shows us how individual we all are, doesn’t it! :-) Jay

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Sue, it’s for lower back pain (spondylolisthesis).  Thanks for your reply…any more to offer? Editor

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – please? > <snippage> >We were discussing my pain meds and he suggested I take something longer >acting > You didn’t say what is causing your pain. Is it backpain, migraines or what? > That would make a difference in the type of med a person would take. > He said possibly the duragesic patch or MS Contin >might be better, and to discuss this with my pain doc.  What do you folks >think about it? > I have never used the MS Contin, but I do use the duragesic patches and for my > type of nerve pain they work great.  They don’t take the pain completely away, > nothing will, but it does bring the pain to a level I can tolerate it. > Good luck and keep us posted. > Sue > We survive together or not at all.

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what does this mean ? http://opioids.com/fentanyl/fentket.html "CONCLUSIONS: Fentanyl activates NMDA pain facilitatory processes, which oppose analgesia and lead to long-lasting enhancement in pain sensitivity." Does this mean that pain sensitivity becomes greater over time by using this ? I wonder if anyone here has developed a pain syndrome from the stress of a bad withdrawal from prescription drugs ? I have it all…chest pains when breathing..soreness in the chest and stomach and 2 years of severe muscle stiffness and tightness and loss of equilibrium. I am trying Elavil now becuase Ocycodone makes me feel ill.  I am new to this and the pain is wearing me down and in Bristish Columbia one cannot just walk into a rheumatologists office..6 months wait..like everything here.  Anyone envious of Canada’s health care system should dosome investigating. R

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Today I saw my doctor who prescribes anti-depressants for me > (psychiatrist). > We were discussing my pain meds and he suggested I take something longer > acting than hydrocodone (Norco) which I am now taking, since they tend to > make me depressed, etc.  He said possibly the duragesic patch or MS Contin > might be better, and to discuss this with my pain doc.  What do you folks > think about it?  I’ve been seeing the psychiatrist for about 13 years (for > anti-depressant medication only – no therapy, per se). > I’d appreciate your input.  Thanks, > Editor > Editor , >    Individual reactions are so hard to predict . > I have been treated for Major Depression for years > and I have an opposite effect , in that hydrocodone > does not depress me like oxycodone . I only use the > Norco rarely , so I don’t worry about the acet . > The Oxycodone may give you significantly greater > pain relief , which in itself may help your depression . > On another note , fentanyl ( Duragesic ) actually > perks me up a little . If I had to start with Duragesic > or MScontin , I would go for the Duragesic . This > is based only on my own experience and YMMV . > Getting the correct dose of either is as important as > which is best for you , and that may take a little time . > Good Luck ! > Peace , > Richard

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >please? >what does this mean ? >http://opioids.com/fentanyl/fentket.html >"CONCLUSIONS: Fentanyl activates NMDA pain facilitatory processes, which >oppose analgesia and lead to long-lasting enhancement in pain sensitivity." >Does this mean that pain sensitivity becomes greater over time by using this >? >I wonder if anyone here has developed a pain syndrome from the stress of a >bad withdrawal from prescription drugs ? >I have it all…chest pains when breathing..soreness in the chest and >stomach and 2 years of severe muscle stiffness and tightness and loss of >equilibrium. I am trying Elavil now becuase Ocycodone makes me feel ill.  I >am new to this and the pain is wearing me down and in Bristish Columbia one >cannot just walk into a rheumatologists office..6 months wait..like >everything here.  Anyone envious of Canada’s health care system should >dosome investigating. >R

That site was quite interesting.  Not sure what to make of it.  I have been using the Duragesic patch for 2 years now and the benefit I find is they give me a constant level of pain relief.  In the beginning, my pain specialist started me on the 50mcg patches and that was not sufficient.  He raised it to the 100 mcg and the relief I received was very sufficient.  During this period of time, I was taking oxycodone for break through pain.  Started in March  of this year, we started changing the patch every 48 hours rather than the 72 hours the packaging recomends.  That again made a sufficient difference in the relief I received.  I now use very few oxycodone for break through pain.  In fact I had my doctor reduce my prescription to half of what it was before. Everyone is different in how medication works for them.  This works great for me.  I still do not have the life I had before all of this happened.  But I can now take care of my basic needs, which was nearly impossible before proper control of the pain. I have not had to have my meds increased since changing the patch ever 2 days and from what my pain doctor tells me, a person actually reaches a place where they kind of plateau and seem to stay there.  Perhaps I have reached that place.  He has let me know I will be on these meds the rest of my life which seems rather daunting.  I cannot say enough good about the patches.  They are an extremely strong medication, about 100 times stronger that morphine.  So a patient must be opiate tolerant for their use. The one thing in that site you sent was they were using the patches for post operative pain.  It is my understanding that is not a proper use for the patches. Sue We survive together or not at all.

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>x-no-archive: yes >I love you, too, dearie.

thats nice . I will sleep so much better knowing that BTW any idea how acid bitch is doing?

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NNTP-Posting-Host: dialup-65.56.61.43.dial1.cleveland1.level3.net (65.56.61.43) >x-no-archive: yes >Your obsession with Hopper has become boring beyond the capacity of >words to describe. >It’s time to stalk someone else. >Why don’t you stalk me? >I think I’ve become a paragon as far as medications are concerned, and >yet I manage to function very well.

Function well? you call posting this to a support group functioning well? You dont give a toss for Hopper or you wouldnt have posted this. Its the very last thing he would have wanted to happen

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400 mg of Ultram? I used take Ultram as I have a mild case of Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, a connective tissue disorder. I can do amazing tricks like crossing my elbows behind my back. I should have joined the circus. As I showed off my special talents I worsened my condition. Eventually I was given Ultram, 50 mg 4 times a day. It made me so sick, throwing up, dizzy, had to cut back to 100. How do you do it, especially with all those other drugs on board? I think I might be admiring you. -alabaster

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> x-no-archive: yes > Ultram, 400 mg daily,         two 50 mg tabs four times a day as > needed. > I can take the Ultram, as much as two 50mg tabs four times a day, as > needed, for pain from the fibromyalgia, which rears its ugly head > commonly when I’m under extreme stress. I’ve only had to take it two or > three times weekly since this latest mixed episode cycle began, but, > like I already said, I’m sure that the Neurontin is what’s keeping it in > remission, because it wasn’t until after I started my present dose of > Neurontin that my fibromyalgia has been in remission most of the time.

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you win the award for the most medicated person i have ever run across… clonazepam, 8 mg daily  – surely you are joking? your withdrawel, and it will come some day, will be a mo’fo’ Wellbutrin SR, 500 mg daily — another joke, speedy man, buzz buzz, don’t have a convulsion… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->x-no-archive: yes >Your obsession with Hopper has become boring beyond the capacity of >words to describe. >It’s time to stalk someone else. >Why don’t you stalk me? >I think I’ve become a paragon as far as medications are concerned, and >yet I manage to function very well. >I’m certainly functioning more adequately than I would if I weren’t >taking the meds. >If you want to hound a consumer of pharmaceuticals, I’m your man. The >following is a listing of the meds I take. >Celebrex, 200 mg daily,                 one 100 mg cap twice a day >clonazepam, 8 mg daily,                 two 2 mg  tabs four times a day as needed; >Lamictal, 500 mg daily,                 one 100 mg tab five times a day; >methylphenidate, 20 mg daily,           one 10 mg tab twice daily >Neurontin, 3600 mg daily,               one 600 mg tab four times a day, & >                                        one 300 mg cap four times a day; >Rhinocort Aqua nasal spray, >64 mcg daily, 32 mcg per accuation, >                                        one accuation each nostril daily; >Synthroid, 150 mcg daily,               one 125 mcg tab upon awakening; >Ultram, 400 mg daily,                   two 50 mg tabs four times a day as >needed. >Wellbutrin SR, 500 mg daily,            one 100 mg  tab five times a day; >The details are provided below, if you’re interested. >The Celebrex, 100mg twice daily, manages to completely eliminate pain >resulting from osteoarthritris in my knees. >Clonazepam is one of the generics I take, _ >I_take_two_2mg_tabs_four_times_daily_. That amounts to 16mg daily. Have >you ever heard of anybody taking that much clonazepam/Klonopin daily >.Neurontin is the only drug they’ve prescribed that has managed to keep >my manic symptoms under control, but if I’m really stressed-out it fails >to control the manic side of my mixed episodes adequately. The only >other drug that has helped is clonazepam. >It’s not really surprising that it has anti-manic capability because >it’s an atypical anticonvulsant, and every drug used to treat >manic-depression except Lithium is an atypical anticonvulsant. The >Nurse’s PDR lists ‘acute manic episodes of bipolar affective disorder’ >as one of its ‘investigational’ uses. >I also take the clonazepam because I have Panic Disorder, with >avoidance, which is generally referred to as agoraphobia. The clonazepam >keeps my agoraphobia under a sufficient degree of control that I can do >things like go to Marc’s to get my groceries, etceteras. My bank is >across the street from Marc’s, there’s a Pet Supplies Plus in the same >little strip mall as Marc’s. The library is a couple of blocks away and >Discount Drug Mart, where I get almost everything that I don’t get at >Marc’s and where I pay my bills. The library is across the street from >Drug Mart, and they’ll deliver and pick up books at my doorstep when I’m >doing badly and I won’t leave the apartment. Their catalog is online. >Cleveland Public Library, the largest and finest library system between >New York and Chicago, also has it’s catalog online and they also pick up >and deliver books to my doorstep, via UPS. >There’s a Record Revolution outlet between Marc’s and the library where >I special-order most of my World Music CD’s. >My internist is in a building, a ’satellite site’ of the Cleveland >Clinic where they only practice Pediatrics and Internal Medicine, about >five buildings past the one I live in, and a van from the hospital where >I see my pdoc picks me up and drops me off at my doorstep. That’s the >only time I go outside of my ‘territory’ unless I’m with my caseworker. >The drugstore where I’ve gotten my prescriptions for over twenty years >is at the far end of the northern side of my ‘territory’ >Five 100mg tabs of Lamictal daily is a huge amount. The Nurse’s PDR >lists 400mg as the maximum maintenance dose to be used for the treatment >of atypical epilepsy. It wasn’t until the pdoc added that extra 100mg >tab daily that I started to feel that it was keeping my depressive >symptoms under control at all. >Today the pdoc prescribed methylphenidate, also known as Ritalin, one >10mg tablet twice daily. Though my mood as been fairly stable, I’ve been >very apathetic, and to say that I dread the coming of the ‘holidays’ and >my 50th birthday would be an exercise in understatement. I figure the >methylphenidate will back up my other antidepressant meds, and it will >most certainly get me moving. I’ve been spending days at a time doing >nothing but reading, ignoring the housekeeping and the houseplants: two >of my ferns died back to the ground. At least I’ve been feeding the >fish. My freshwater tropical fish are so beautiful, and most of the ones >that I have, Malawi peacocks and New Guinea rainbowfish, become more >colorful as they mature. Most of the fish sold at pet stores are >juveniles. I have seven aquariums, but most are very sparsely populated >because they have special fish in them. >Neurontin, 900mg four times daily, yessir, that’s 3600mg of Neurontin >daily. The Neurontin has the added benefit of keeping my fibromyalgia in >remission most of the time. >I use the Rhinocort Aqua Nasal Spray once a day, one squirt in each >nostril, for Vasomotor Rhinitis, which is quite common among those who >have fibromyalgia. I started using it fairly recently. Before that I >used Vancenase for about twenty years, but the Rhinocort works better. >I take the 150mcg of Synthroid daily because I had Grave’s Disease and >they had to destroy my thyroid gland with radioactive iodine. >I can take the Ultram, as much as two 50mg tabs four times a day, as >needed, for pain from the fibromyalgia, which rears its ugly head >commonly when I’m under extreme stress. I’ve only had to take it two or >three times weekly since this latest mixed episode cycle began, but, >like I already said, I’m sure that the Neurontin is what’s keeping it in >remission, because it wasn’t until after I started my present dose of >Neurontin that my fibromyalgia has been in remission most of the time. >Finally, I take 500mg, that’s right folks, I said 500mg, of Wellbutrin >daily. It wasn’t until the pdoc increased my anti-manic meds to their >present level that I could take any antidepressant, and only recently, >about a week after the pdoc increased the dosage to 500mg, that I >finally feel that my depressive symptoms are under a sufficient degree >of control.

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Lamotrigine is a medication used to treat Bipolar & Epilepsy. Buy lamotrigine drug and feel better today!

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SqUiGgLeS wrote – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->I’m going to have to look lamotrigine; i’m glad you found >something good. >I am convinced that people drink because they are suffering >from some kind of emotional illness.  Nobody wants to >enter oblivion if they are not feeling some kind of pain. >I think it is waaaayy underrated and underdiagnosed by >doctors as a sign (ding ding ding ding) that there is >something wrong in the person’s inner life.  It’s just such >a bummer when the whole life is taken up by it, and no >intervention has taken place to correct it. >But you know, better late than never.   >Squiggles >p.s. why on earth would you take an SSRI for your case, sheesh. >btw lithium does have its problems, but after 20+ yrs of taking >it with a very good mental state, i can’t complain;

hi, well the reason for the SSRI was that nobody including me had even thought about the possibility of BP, i presented with standard depression / anxiety symptoms, i hadnt noticed the cycles between anxiety and depressed phases, and hadnt really thought about my temperament in the past as i wasnt an expert, at that stage i thought manic depression was only the very graphic BP I and it didnt cross my mind.. nor my pdocs… i guess i was one of those people who wasnt screened properly, its only since i was diagnosed cyclothymic (my first DX, i now say i’m BP II) that i was able to look back and think, ah, this is what i was like all along.. by then i’d been taking an SSRI for two years…. ! i definately was drinking because of the depression…. and when i wasnt drinking i was hiding away into my work.. working long hours in the studio and coming home and drinking… but i wonder if its a coincidence that the BP became stronger once i’d given up the drink? i think getting through anxiety was a factor too, i think the anxiety was covering a lot of the BP symtoms… lamotrigine is interesting, i’ve heard from a few here that its very effective…. im yet to find out as its too early to say, but im feeling some benefit at a low dose… bw m~ — dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

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>SqUiGgLeS wrote >I am convinced that people drink because they are suffering >from some kind of emotional illness.  Nobody wants to >enter oblivion if they are not feeling some kind of pain.

i don’t know why other people drink, you are probably correct, but i was an exception to SqUiGgLeS Syndrome, i would get hypomanic and want to take or drink something to make the joy go up and up and HOWL AT THE MOON!!!!! feels pretty good…to bad i got in so much trouble… i hope you study this further and share your findings with the world…

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((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((m)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) ) ))))))) no sorry, you descibe perfectly what I feel about my anorexia.. yes, trying to prove ‘was worth something. i triendwith schoolwork etc. etc, i did whatever i couldto be perfect (to hide the fear of being nothing), but anorexia was somehow the only thing giving somehow satisfaction, like i was really achieving something (although I always saw fat everywhere, no matter howskinny i was) I think that the same feeling-worthless-stuff is also behind my depressions. And behind my ups, because I’m always unde pressure tobe "prefect", and this pressure brings me "up" m, i hope you’ll ecoversoon from your therapy-session, when it’sabout this kind of stuff, it can bring back lots of heavy emotions, is my experience.. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > yes, it has many complicated reasons behind it > for me it was also one of the many things i do to eradicate the crapness > that i believe is at the centre of my being, it was like all the > workworkwork i do to try and prove myself worthwhile, i was always > pointed out by my mother and by school peers as a fat little kid (and > actually i wasnt even chubby if i look at my pictures, i just had a > critical mother!.. who is *still* critical of my appearance and > everything i do)… so i thought i could make myself better and more > likeable by being skinny… and the more i did it, the better i > became… only i felt worse and worse because i could see more fat on my > body that needed getting rid of…. and eventually im trying to get rid > of everything that is me because i hate me…. > err whoops sorry, stream of consciousness there, im feeling a bit low > cos this is partly what i was talking to therapist about this afternoon…. > hugz > m~ >yes, anorexia is about control for me to >but also about doing at least 1 thing (loosing weight) i was sure i did >well..somehow it made me proud to loose weight, more then everyone else. >all the other things i did, i was never sure off, i was never proud off. >This wassomething i completely did myself, and no-one, no-one could control >me in this area, whatever everyone tried, i went on.. >>"ME" wrote >>>the way I see it myself is a bit different: >>>anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started >>>dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my >>>moods.. >>Hey I was anorectic too… hmm… seems many of us have had that kind of >>dissorder… >>And yeah, to me the anorexia was all focused on CONTROL. In a world thta >>completely lacked predictability I could atleast take control of my body. >>And disappear. >>Sorta. >>Warm hugs, >>TK > — > dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

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yes, it has many complicated reasons behind it for me it was also one of the many things i do to eradicate the crapness that i believe is at the centre of my being, it was like all the workworkwork i do to try and prove myself worthwhile, i was always pointed out by my mother and by school peers as a fat little kid (and actually i wasnt even chubby if i look at my pictures, i just had a critical mother!.. who is *still* critical of my appearance and everything i do)… so i thought i could make myself better and more likeable by being skinny… and the more i did it, the better i became… only i felt worse and worse because i could see more fat on my body that needed getting rid of…. and eventually im trying to get rid of everything that is me because i hate me…. err whoops sorry, stream of consciousness there, im feeling a bit low cos this is partly what i was talking to therapist about this afternoon…. hugz m~ – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >yes, anorexia is about control for me to >but also about doing at least 1 thing (loosing weight) i was sure i did >well..somehow it made me proud to loose weight, more then everyone else. >all the other things i did, i was never sure off, i was never proud off. >This wassomething i completely did myself, and no-one, no-one could control >me in this area, whatever everyone tried, i went on.. >"ME" wrote >>the way I see it myself is a bit different: >>anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started >>dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my >>moods.. >Hey I was anorectic too… hmm… seems many of us have had that kind of >dissorder… >And yeah, to me the anorexia was all focused on CONTROL. In a world thta >completely lacked predictability I could atleast take control of my body. >And disappear. >Sorta. >Warm hugs, >TK

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((((((((((Crap Ness)))))))))))

yes, it has many complicated reasons behind it for me it was also one of the many things i do to eradicate the crapness that i believe is at the centre of my being, it was like all the workworkwork i do to try and prove myself worthwhile, i was always pointed out by my mother and by school peers as a fat little kid (and actually i wasnt even chubby if i look at my pictures, i just had a critical mother!.. who is *still* critical of my appearance and everything i do)… so i thought i could make myself better and more likeable by being skinny… and the more i did it, the better i became… only i felt worse and worse because i could see more fat on my body that needed getting rid of…. and eventually im trying to get rid of everything that is me because i hate me…. err whoops sorry, stream of consciousness there, im feeling a bit low cos this is partly what i was talking to therapist about this afternoon…. hugz m~ – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >yes, anorexia is about control for me to >but also about doing at least 1 thing (loosing weight) i was sure i did >well..somehow it made me proud to loose weight, more then everyone else. >all the other things i did, i was never sure off, i was never proud off. >This wassomething i completely did myself, and no-one, no-one could control >me in this area, whatever everyone tried, i went on.. >"ME" wrote >>the way I see it myself is a bit different: >>anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started >>dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my >>moods.. >Hey I was anorectic too… hmm… seems many of us have had that kind of >dissorder… >And yeah, to me the anorexia was all focused on CONTROL. In a world thta >completely lacked predictability I could atleast take control of my body. >And disappear. >Sorta. >Warm hugs, >TK

– dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

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hi squiggles thats really interesting that we have such common experiences… yes i think certain circumstances of my life definately lead to depression… but there has got to be something in my family background i guess… i know i had cyclothymia all my life… and nobody in my family admits to BP but on my fathers side there were a lot of violent alcoholic men who might be hiding their BP under the alcohol… i was reminded in discussion last night that i also had an addiction i came out of just before i was diagnosed as BP…. i was drinking constantly – not heavily, but enough to numb myself out – for a whole year, and it took me several tries to come off the drink…. that was the year before i was diagnosed…. it might well have been a factor…. coming back into the ‘real world’ was quite strange…. yes, i have decided to use a mood stabiliser now, in the end i decided to because i need it to be stable enough to work…. things are so inconsistent for me that i lose energy with all these mood swings and can’t manage a job at the moment… im taking lamotrigine, it has the least side effects of anything i’ve tried… and i’ve reduced the SSRI which i think was another big factor in my BP… hopefully it will work well but its early days yet… it seems to have some effect anyway :) …  its good to know the lithium works well for you, i’ve heard its a wonder drug… im just a bit nervous of it because of the side effects…. take care hon m~ – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >hi m~, >there are many common aspects between your experiences >and mine; maybe the circumstances of your life put you >in emotional states that lead to depression or manic-depression, >assuming that you have a propensity for that; sort of >like, if your genetic code says you are likely to get >gall bladder trouble, and you eat a lot of fatty foods, >you get it rather than not.  Who knows? there are no >blood tests. >But when it is severe as you describe, i would recommend >a drug, because it won’t go away with psychotherapy once >it has propelled itself into a change in the brain. >I take lithium; i hope what you take will work out; >cheers, >Squiggles

– dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

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yes, anorexia is about control for me to but also about doing at least 1 thing (loosing weight) i was sure i did well..somehow it made me proud to loose weight, more then everyone else. all the other things i did, i was never sure off, i was never proud off. This wassomething i completely did myself, and no-one, no-one could control me in this area, whatever everyone tried, i went on.. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> "ME" wrote > the way I see it myself is a bit different: > anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started > dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my > moods.. > Hey I was anorectic too… hmm… seems many of us have had that kind of > dissorder… > And yeah, to me the anorexia was all focused on CONTROL. In a world thta > completely lacked predictability I could atleast take control of my body. > And disappear. > Sorta. > Warm hugs, > TK

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – >"ME" wrote >the way I see it myself is a bit different: >anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started >dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my >moods.. >Hey I was anorectic too… hmm… seems many of us have had that kind of >dissorder… >And yeah, to me the anorexia was all focused on CONTROL. In a world thta >completely lacked predictability I could atleast take control of my body. >And disappear. >Sorta. >Warm hugs, >TK

my experience is somewhat similiar too… except that i felt i was a failure, and i tried so hard to do everything perfect to make up for that… thats what the anorexia was for me too…. i talk so much about control with my therapist…. yes, disappearing… heh, thats a big factor in my depression, not so much in anorexia, but when im depressed i want to disappear completely… thats why i like that radiohead song so much… must send you a copy, its a beautiful album.. and the unpredictability… the world outside has always scared me…. {{{{{{gentle huggles}}}}}} m~ — dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

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> i know what >you mean about impulsiveness; my husband has often chastised me >about it; it may be a part of being bipolar but it’s also my >character; as i do not hurt anyone by it, i don’t consider it >a disease.

sorry to butt in here…. just the mention of impulsiveness… it used to drive my mother crazy… ‘why are you laughing so loud.. hey dont lose control, dont do things without thinking’… but impusiveness is part of me, part of what makes me the fun-loving person i am… what makes me go and create art and music…. learn new things out of crazy inspiration… yes, it can get too much, but a certain part of this BP is who i am, its my personality… and i dont want to ever lose that…. i only want enough medication that i can keep things in control, so i can keep a job… but im only just starting to learn that being BP isnt something that makes me ‘bad’…. quite often its something that people enjoy, this inspired, spontaneous, impulsive, fun loving person….. hugz m~ — dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

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> medication that i can keep things in control, so i can keep a job… but > im only just starting to learn that being BP isnt something that makes > me ‘bad’…. quite often its something that people enjoy, this inspired, > spontaneous, impulsive, fun loving person….. > hugz > m~ > — > dogs believe they are human ~ cats believe they are God

Appreciate the vote of confidence m~; maybe we should start the Undead Poets’ Society; seriously, though… *enough* medication is absolutely right on–just wish doctors would tinker with that and there would be less side effects. cheers, Squiggles

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > hi squiggles > thats really interesting that we have such common experiences… > yes i think certain circumstances of my life definately lead to > depression… but there has got to be something in my family background > i guess… i know i had cyclothymia all my life… and nobody in my > family admits to BP but on my fathers side there were a lot of violent > alcoholic men who might be hiding their BP under the alcohol… > i was reminded in discussion last night that i also had an addiction i > came out of just before i was diagnosed as BP…. i was drinking > constantly – not heavily, but enough to numb myself out – for a whole > year, and it took me several tries to come off the drink…. that was > the year before i was diagnosed…. it might well have been a factor…. > coming back into the ‘real world’ was quite strange…. > yes, i have decided to use a mood stabiliser now, in the end i decided > to because i need it to be stable enough to work…. things are so > inconsistent for me that i lose energy with all these mood swings and > can’t manage a job at the moment… im taking lamotrigine, it has the > least side effects of anything i’ve tried… and i’ve reduced the SSRI > which i think was another big factor in my BP… hopefully it will work > well but its early days yet… it seems to have some effect anyway :) … >  its good to know the lithium works well for you, i’ve heard its a > wonder drug… im just a bit nervous of it because of the side effects…. > take care hon > m~

I’m going to have to look lamotrigine; i’m glad you found something good. I am convinced that people drink because they are suffering from some kind of emotional illness.  Nobody wants to enter oblivion if they are not feeling some kind of pain. I think it is waaaayy underrated and underdiagnosed by doctors as a sign (ding ding ding ding) that there is something wrong in the person’s inner life.  It’s just such a bummer when the whole life is taken up by it, and no intervention has taken place to correct it. But you know, better late than never.   Squiggles p.s. why on earth would you take an SSRI for your case, sheesh. btw lithium does have its problems, but after 20+ yrs of taking it with a very good mental state, i can’t complain;

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hey princess ME i didnt know you had anorexia too, i had that when i was 20 still gives me problems with body image yeah there might be someting in the hypoglycaemia, it makes me high i dont eat lunch now if im working cos hypoglycaemia makes me buzzzzzzz i agree that anorexia blocks emotions too, you put all your focus into external stuff when that was over i had a manic high and then a breakdown..anxiety and OCD…. never knew what all that stuff was back then cos i wouldnt tak to anyone…. mega hugglez princess m~ – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->>Hi Squiggles, >>Hard to say..I’ll just tell my story. >>At age 20 I went to live in a studentshouse, being anorectic at that >time. >>Anorexia quit soon dissappeard, and the moodswings begun (i do belive >that >>there isa connecting between those two for me). >>As far as I can remember it started with mild, fast moodswing, from >being >>donw for at most a few weeks, and being very energetic. >>I really don’t know for sure if this was BP-stuff, but I think so. >>It felt like being an emotionally very unstable person. >>Later on the depressions became deeper and a lot longer. I never felt >the >>mania until I was hospitalized once. Looking back, I can see I’ve had >>hypomanic episodes a lot more often. >>No anxiety attacks >>I often got depressions after having troubles, and I got hypomanic from >>working a lot, or being to busy. >Hi ME, >Again, here is an example of a dietary connection, i.e. >anorexia– that might make you hypoglycemic for sure.  Of >course, it could be the other way around.  I recall that in >my teens i would go from gaining a lot of weight to being >stick skinny in phases. >the way I see it myself is a bit different: >anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started >dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my >moods.. >Interesting- it seems that if you have a dip, then you necessarily >have an upswing – that is why they call it bipolar.  But, it >may be related to depression period and the depressed people >just never get to swing back up– very much like a pendulum >trying to get an equilibrium back. >Squiggles >- Sir Winston Churchill

– "While UNIX says “I’m sorry you can’t do that”, MacOS has exactly two error messages. It either goes “eep?” or the setup box is simply not there until 12 other unidentified items have been installed and three apparently unrelated dialog boxes have been completed. " – Alan Cox, on porting GNU/Linux to 68k macs

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hi m~, there are many common aspects between your experiences and mine; maybe the circumstances of your life put you in emotional states that lead to depression or manic-depression, assuming that you have a propensity for that; sort of like, if your genetic code says you are likely to get gall bladder trouble, and you eat a lot of fatty foods, you get it rather than not.  Who knows? there are no blood tests. But when it is severe as you describe, i would recommend a drug, because it won’t go away with psychotherapy once it has propelled itself into a change in the brain. I take lithium; i hope what you take will work out; cheers, Squiggles

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"ME" wrote > the way I see it myself is a bit different: > anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started > dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my > moods..

Hey I was anorectic too… hmm… seems many of us have had that kind of dissorder… And yeah, to me the anorexia was all focused on CONTROL. In a world thta completely lacked predictability I could atleast take control of my body. And disappear. Sorta. Warm hugs, TK

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Hi ME, >Again, here is an example of a dietary connection, i.e. >anorexia– that might make you hypoglycemic for sure.  Of >course, it could be the other way around.  I recall that in >my teens i would go from gaining a lot of weight to being >stick skinny in phases. >Interesting- it seems that if you have a dip, then you necessarily >have an upswing – that is why they call it bipolar.  But, it >may be related to depression period and the depressed people >just never get to swing back up– very much like a pendulum >trying to get an equilibrium back.

hi squiggles yeah i’ve read a bit about that lately, some theories that bp and unipolar are all part of the same spectrum… for me the depression probably started way back from day 1 of being a kid and being alienated but i remember one day in particular when my parents had split up and we went back to australia (had been living in switzerland) and all my friends didnt want to know me any more and i was so alone i became really angry and violent at home becaue there was nowhere else to take it but that scared me that i could be so horrible so at 10 years old i shut down everything that feels and i can date that as the day when i started having depressions i know my moods swung back and forth and attributed that to being a creative type then when i was 12 i got ocd had that for nearly 10 years and told nobody then i was anorexic at 20… and stopped when i could see every bit of fat on my body and i was 8 1/2 stone which is pretty skinny on me and it scared me but i went to canada and didnt eat much there eihter and used to spend a lot of time alone i got on this religious high which i think now was a manic high came back home and got really low and crashed into a breakdown thats when i had to tell my mum i had ocd suffered with that still mostly alone for a coupla years then it kinda cleared when i moved to the UK it was something to do with getting an understanding and taking control of my own life, feeling independent i started studying and used to get in these panicked rushes where i’d work too fast a lot like my dysphoric manias but they didnt go that far i had another breakdown at 26, that was anxiety and panic attacks, had been working in a school and got really depressed, i had these weird attacks where i felt like i was being sealed off from the rest of the world funny thing is once i learnt to control the anxiety and deal with it the panics stopped a few years later i was taking SSRI meds then too and im sure that the buzz that turned into BP came partly from taking zoloft cos i only noticed it being really buzzy since then but before i had mania, i used to have cycles between anxiety – which felt kinda high – and then a depression after…. thesedays i get mania if im rushing about trying to do too much or if i am among a group of people and i feel pressure to talk and talk… and sometimes i just get inspired and then it happens…. i get about a 1-2 week up and then a coupla weeks down…. sometimes longer downs… sometimes very long depressions… i get a lot of dysphoric mania, just occasionally i get euphoric, racing thoughts, pressured speech, loss of ability to concentrate… i verge on psychosis but have never been there…. the meds (lamictal and zoloft) help somewhat but sometimes i feel like im being numbed and that makes me feel down… i dont think it was sudden…. more gradual… like the stressouts turned into manias… and one day i noticed this was happening too much…. the depressions were more sudden…. but i’ve always had this thing that when i’ve been sad or crying and i feel better i swing up and overshoot the mark thats what its like when i recover from depression too…. yeah the going up the elevator fast is something i recognise… thats what that swing upwards feels like…. like i get inspired and then its outta control….. hope you can find some answers hon hugz m~ — "While UNIX says “I’m sorry you can’t do that”, MacOS has exactly two error messages. It either goes “eep?” or the setup box is simply not there until 12 other unidentified items have been installed and three apparently unrelated dialog boxes have been completed. " – Alan Cox, on porting GNU/Linux to 68k macs

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I’d be greatful to you all, if you could recount from memory how your manic depression started – – was it sudden, – did it start with mania (speediness), or with depression, – did you feel out of balance like going up the elevator fast, – did you sink into unimagineable depression, – was it all preceded by sudden anxiety attacks? I’m trying to find common ground, because I think i will never know if i am truly bp or if it was unregcognized and undiagnosed Valium withdrawal. Thanks (as many details as possible about how it FELT would be appreciated) Squiggles

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I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD. MY MOTHER WAS GOING THROUGH SOME WEIRD SHIT1 and sew did eye! r . : r : . w | w | e . . . . . . . . c . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . h : o : : e , . s 11D

I’d be greatful to you all, if you could recount from memory how your manic depression started – – was it sudden, – did it start with mania (speediness), or with depression, – did you feel out of balance like going up the elevator fast, – did you sink into unimagineable depression, – was it all preceded by sudden anxiety attacks? I’m trying to find common ground, because I think i will never know if i am truly bp or if it was unregcognized and undiagnosed Valium withdrawal. Thanks (as many details as possible about how it FELT would be appreciated) Squiggles

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LINDA? rr

I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD. MY MOTHER WAS GOING THROUGH SOME WEIRD SHIT1 and sew did eye! r . : r : . w | w | e . . . . . . . . c . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . h : o : : e , . s 11D

I’d be greatful to you all, if you could recount from memory how your manic depression started – – was it sudden, – did it start with mania (speediness), or with depression, – did you feel out of balance like going up the elevator fast, – did you sink into unimagineable depression, – was it all preceded by sudden anxiety attacks? I’m trying to find common ground, because I think i will never know if i am truly bp or if it was unregcognized and undiagnosed Valium withdrawal. Thanks (as many details as possible about how it FELT would be appreciated) Squiggles

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I had a can’t-stand-still manic episode after I had lost 35 pounds on Atkins’ Diet and then ate birthday cake.  Say what you will about just an anxiety attack, but  going back on both sides of the family, it was there. Two aunts were hospitalized and given shock therapy; my grandmother drove everyone in her family ‘to the edge.’  They thought she was mean when all she was was sick.  I gave my mother Patty Duke’s books and she literally cried to find out that grandma was sick and not just mean. My main manic symptom that leads me to medication is racing thoughts.  I have been tried on many meds and have finally found the right ‘cocktail’ for me.  BTW:  I am 56 years old and as I look back, I have had it all my life. — Val in Boise

I’d be greatful to you all, if you could recount from memory how your manic depression started – – was it sudden, – did it start with mania (speediness), or with depression, – did you feel out of balance like going up the elevator fast, – did you sink into unimagineable depression, – was it all preceded by sudden anxiety attacks? I’m trying to find common ground, because I think i will never know if i am truly bp or if it was unregcognized and undiagnosed Valium withdrawal. Thanks (as many details as possible about how it FELT would be appreciated) Squiggles

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Hi Squiggles, Hard to say..I’ll just tell my story. At age 20 I went to live in a studentshouse, being anorectic at that time. Anorexia quit soon dissappeard, and the moodswings begun (i do belive that there isa connecting between those two for me). As far as I can remember it started with mild, fast moodswing, from being donw for at most a few weeks, and being very energetic. I really don’t know for sure if this was BP-stuff, but I think so. It felt like being an emotionally very unstable person. Later on the depressions became deeper and a lot longer. I never felt the mania until I was hospitalized once. Looking back, I can see I’ve had hypomanic episodes a lot more often. No anxiety attacks I often got depressions after having troubles, and I got hypomanic from working a lot, or being to busy. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I’d be greatful to you all, if you could recount from > memory how your manic depression started – > – was it sudden, > – did it start with mania (speediness), or with depression, > – did you feel out of balance like going up the elevator fast, > – did you sink into unimagineable depression, > – was it all preceded by sudden anxiety attacks? > I’m trying to find common ground, because I think i will > never know if i am truly bp or if it was unregcognized and > undiagnosed Valium withdrawal. > Thanks > (as many details as possible about how it FELT would be appreciated) > Squiggles

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> I had a can’t-stand-still manic episode after I had lost 35 pounds on > Atkins’ Diet and then ate birthday cake.  Say what you will about just an > anxiety attack, but  going back on both sides of the family, it was there. > Two aunts were hospitalized and given shock therapy; my grandmother drove > everyone in her family ‘to the edge.’  They thought she was mean when all > she was was sick.  I gave my mother Patty Duke’s books and she literally > cried to find out that grandma was sick and not just mean. > My main manic symptom that leads me to medication is racing thoughts.  I > have been tried on many meds and have finally found the right ‘cocktail’ for > me.  BTW:  I am 56 years old and as I look back, I have had it all my life. > —

Hi Val, Thanks for the reply… i keep asking the same questions — that’s because i keep getting the same answers – none; well, in your case it does sound like hypoglycemia may have played a part there, but it could be concurrent. The hereditary aspect though, puts a real stamp on it. Thanks Squiggles

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > Hi Squiggles, > Hard to say..I’ll just tell my story. > At age 20 I went to live in a studentshouse, being anorectic at that time. > Anorexia quit soon dissappeard, and the moodswings begun (i do belive that > there isa connecting between those two for me). > As far as I can remember it started with mild, fast moodswing, from being > donw for at most a few weeks, and being very energetic. > I really don’t know for sure if this was BP-stuff, but I think so. > It felt like being an emotionally very unstable person. > Later on the depressions became deeper and a lot longer. I never felt the > mania until I was hospitalized once. Looking back, I can see I’ve had > hypomanic episodes a lot more often. > No anxiety attacks > I often got depressions after having troubles, and I got hypomanic from > working a lot, or being to busy.

Hi ME, Again, here is an example of a dietary connection, i.e. anorexia– that might make you hypoglycemic for sure.  Of course, it could be the other way around.  I recall that in my teens i would go from gaining a lot of weight to being stick skinny in phases. Interesting- it seems that if you have a dip, then you necessarily have an upswing – that is why they call it bipolar.  But, it may be related to depression period and the depressed people just never get to swing back up– very much like a pendulum trying to get an equilibrium back. Squiggles                         – Sir Winston Churchill

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hi Squiggles, > Hard to say..I’ll just tell my story. > At age 20 I went to live in a studentshouse, being anorectic at that time. > Anorexia quit soon dissappeard, and the moodswings begun (i do belive that > there isa connecting between those two for me). > As far as I can remember it started with mild, fast moodswing, from being > donw for at most a few weeks, and being very energetic. > I really don’t know for sure if this was BP-stuff, but I think so. > It felt like being an emotionally very unstable person. > Later on the depressions became deeper and a lot longer. I never felt the > mania until I was hospitalized once. Looking back, I can see I’ve had > hypomanic episodes a lot more often. > No anxiety attacks > I often got depressions after having troubles, and I got hypomanic from > working a lot, or being to busy. > Hi ME, > Again, here is an example of a dietary connection, i.e. > anorexia– that might make you hypoglycemic for sure.  Of > course, it could be the other way around.  I recall that in > my teens i would go from gaining a lot of weight to being > stick skinny in phases.

the way I see it myself is a bit different: anorexia kills emotions i.m.o., so when this period was over, I"started dealing with these emotions in another way: getting up and down with my moods.. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Interesting- it seems that if you have a dip, then you necessarily > have an upswing – that is why they call it bipolar.  But, it > may be related to depression period and the depressed people > just never get to swing back up– very much like a pendulum > trying to get an equilibrium back. > Squiggles > – Sir Winston Churchill

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SqU.  It is in my genes.  When I was in high school, I could never stay interested in a specific boy for longer than a month or so.  I finally met Pharis and he changes so much that he has hung around 29 years. I have a lot of skill as a typist and receptionist.  I never applied for a job I wanted that I didn’t get.  The problem is this.  When I am manic, the jobs look so wonderful and I really want to do that.  So I get the job and after awhile, I think ‘what was I thinking.’  But I am stuck.  I hang in, hating it, until I get a real low and I will quit over the smallest intrusion. I never stayed at a job longer than three years (I hated them after 18 months). So what I am saying is that something like my birthday cake thing will trigger enough to look back and tell the doctor so he makes the diagnosis. No sweat. — Val in Boise

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > SqU.  It is in my genes.  When I was in high school, I could never stay > interested in a specific boy for longer than a month or so.  I finally met > Pharis and he changes so much that he has hung around 29 years. > I have a lot of skill as a typist and receptionist.  I never applied for a > job I wanted that I didn’t get.  The problem is this.  When I am manic, the > jobs look so wonderful and I really want to do that.  So I get the job and > after awhile, I think ‘what was I thinking.’  But I am stuck.  I hang in, > hating it, until I get a real low and I will quit over the smallest > intrusion. > I never stayed at a job longer than three years (I hated them after 18 > months). > So what I am saying is that something like my birthday cake thing will > trigger enough to look back and tell the doctor so he makes the diagnosis. > No sweat. > — > Val in Boise

Val, the way you describe your present reactions to situations sounds like you are NOT taking drugs – is that so?  Or have you reduced the dosage? "Pharis" hmmm…. sounds like a Greek name maybe; i know what you mean about impulsiveness; my husband has often chastised me about it; it may be a part of being bipolar but it’s also my character; as i do not hurt anyone by it, i don’t consider it a disease. Squiggles — "Man will occasionally stumble over the truth, but most times he will pick himself up and carry on."                         – Sir Winston Churchill

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>Hi, >Does anyone have any opinion on smoking cannabis while on accutane? A >site said that tobacco and marijuana reduces the effect of accutane. >Roche mentions nothing about this, so I was wondering if the only >negative effect of cannabis is a possible enhancement of depression. >Has anyone smoked cannabis while on accutane, and if so, how did it >affect you and how did it affect the effect of the accutane?

I smoked pot during my first and second courses of Accutane with no problems at all.  The doctor took blood samples for liver analysis and everything checked out okay.  You must avoid alcohol, though, as it is very hard on the liver and will negatively affect Accutane treatment.

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Hi, Does anyone have any opinion on smoking cannabis while on accutane? A site said that tobacco and marijuana reduces the effect of accutane. Roche mentions nothing about this, so I was wondering if the only negative effect of cannabis is a possible enhancement of depression. Has anyone smoked cannabis while on accutane, and if so, how did it affect you and how did it affect the effect of the accutane? thanks, Mads

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